wow emily...really all i can say to that is...very deep. Very very deep. em you know that i love you and i can say it a MILLION times..that i am here for you. and i am going to keep saying it so you know...things sound like they have been very...complicated...i dont know how else to put it into words, and i feel sorry that we dont talk as much and ... im here. <3
You're fucking gross. You're a toothpick as it is, is it quite necessary to feign an eating disorder because your best friend has one, thus it makes you look cool as well? You're quite fucked up if you think that, and everyone knows you don't actually have an eating disorder so stop pretending.
o yes!! thats it!!! this is all an act to make myself *cool*... i enjoy hurting everyone around me =)... im just PSYCHO that way... cutting myself... yup JUST AN ACT!! cause yeah i have the perfect life and the perfect body and i loooove just MAKING myself depressed!! cause you know i want to be in therapy!! this is just what iv been wishing for all my life...
PLEASE!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!!!
i didnt want what has happened in my life to happen... and though i may not want to admit it... YES YOUR RIGHT! sallie was a big trigger... but sallie has taught me that i can do something about my unhappiness and imperfections... instead of just sulking over it... and its making me HAPPIER!!! so im sorry if that bothers you...
and if i was really a *toothpick* then why would i do this... obviously im not... iv gained 20 pounds over the summer... thats not a toothpick....
you STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID FUCKING PERSON!!!!! so FUCKING what of u gaind 20 fucking lbs!!! STOP ur fucking whining!!!!! do you KNOW how many FUCKING people.. would KILL to weigh 100lbs!just cuz ur fucking hip bones dont stick out or cuz u cant see every single 1 of your fucking ribs... DOESNT MEAN UR FAT! god. and by only eating 200 cals a day, is making ur stomach SHRINK so then when u eat more then that like heaven for big 300 cals... ur stomach gets bigger faster. so but doing this to your self u could pissibly GAIN MORE!! OMG 101 LBS!!!! omg i think im gonna die!!!... look, i know u've been thought really hard times so dun say that bull shit 2 me when u comment back 2 this cuz it doesnt have anything 2 do with the fact that ur head is fucked up when u say your fat. it would be in ur own best intrest to eat a normal breakfast lunch and dinner and once ur stomach gets used to that with the stupid thing that u call a sport ((cheerleading)) rolls around.. u will be fine. probly with all the work u do u could lose weight faster.
im perfectly aware of the *stomach shrinking* factor... trust me... ((half of it is common sense but w/e))... and honestly... this is my place to whin... online in my liveJOURNAL is my place to whine... im not writting in here to please anyone but myself... so if you think its whiney... then DONT READ IT!! its as simple as that!!! and i know i will lose weight by cheerin... but right now im not in cheering!!! so unless i do something else then nothing is happening... and you have to take into consideration that i am an overall tiny person... so on an average size girl 100 pounds might be overweight... but to me... lets just say NOT SO MUCH.... and especially for cheerin the less i weigh the better!! so its not only for myself but for my squad...
and since your obviously keeping track and regularly reading my LJ... WHO ARE YOU?!
Hey Sweety, Just wanted to say I am here for you, and I understand. You are beautiful, you truely are, and form what I have seen you are an incredible and strong person inside, even if people don't agree with your methods. People don't understand the strength it takes to live with these problems, the Anorexia and Bullemiah, the cutting, the depression, but I want you to know I am here for you whenever you need to talk. I will even give you my number if you are in need to speak with someone and I am not online. LOve you, Hunny, Olivia
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PLEASE!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!!!
i didnt want what has happened in my life to happen... and though i may not want to admit it... YES YOUR RIGHT! sallie was a big trigger... but sallie has taught me that i can do something about my unhappiness and imperfections... instead of just sulking over it... and its making me HAPPIER!!! so im sorry if that bothers you...
and if i was really a *toothpick* then why would i do this... obviously im not... iv gained 20 pounds over the summer... thats not a toothpick....
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and since your obviously keeping track and regularly reading my LJ... WHO ARE YOU?!
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Just wanted to say I am here for you, and I understand. You are beautiful, you truely are, and form what I have seen you are an incredible and strong person inside, even if people don't agree with your methods. People don't understand the strength it takes to live with these problems, the Anorexia and Bullemiah, the cutting, the depression, but I want you to know I am here for you whenever you need to talk. I will even give you my number if you are in need to speak with someone and I am not online.
LOve you, Hunny,
Olivia
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