i feel like such a horrible person... i did what i always wanted to do... i pushed him away... far far far away... and now im never gonna be with him... just to weird... i dont think he would anyways... i just showed him the stupid psycho side of me all the time... instead of letting him get to know me... i didnt want him to get close to me... i ( Read more... )

last night was... interesting... @ melissaz... kristen and zach never came back cause they got really trashed... etc... but we picked up sallie at like 1100 and when we got back to the appt she had a pint of sex on the beach... then another like 3/4 of a pint of strait vodka... and then half vodka half fruit punch... all within the course of an ( Read more... )

im at my bossz ((melissa)) place with brittany and we are waiting for kristen and zach to come back from doing the a coke deal =P... sallie should be coming over around 11, 1130ish.... yeah tonight i will be drinking away the pain that fucken jeremy has been putting on me... the fucken asshole... i love how he thinks that everything he has been ( Read more... )

after work today i went with laura and brittany... we ate at packards (free casue brittanyz dad owns the place) and then went back to melissaz (my boss) house (brittanyz house sitting) on the way home we went to walmart adn got some jello mix and dixie cups then to the liquoirs place near stop and shop and picked up some strawberry vodka and i got ( Read more... )

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he broke up with me...

im alone

when i was with him... it wasnt perfect... but atleast i had someone...

now i have no one...

im by myself...

bawling my eyes out

hez telling me not to cut

i dont know how to not cut....

but then if he cut

i know i would feel like shit

so il try not to....

yeah going to work tomorrow will be fun...

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talked to jeremy... realized that two emotionally unstable people put into a relationship is a very BAD combination... =/... o well... he got pissed cause i didnt say i love you to him... he doesnt understand... it was so hard for me to tell him i loved him before... and i didnt even say it... i TYPED it... i dont want to love him... i hate loving ( Read more... )

blah blah blah... i feel like im falling apart as i watch everyone around me do the same... candi and chris are happy as ever and i cant say that that doesnt bother me... i mean chris is a good guy and a great friend... candi deserves that in her life... just the green eyes of jelousy are coming out i guess... o well... im still happy for her no ( Read more... )

i just want to point out right now that sallie is my best friend... iv known her since for like ever and she knows me and understands me more than anyone could ever imagine... whatever you decide to do sallie, il be right there for you 150%... il be the first person you see when you get out... i want you to smile from the inside out... i want you ( Read more... )