i'm trying hard not to think so much about things and to just let them happen. at this point, forcing things into place isn't going to help me out because in the long run i know i will suffer. but now i've finally realized how tough it is to sort out two people's lives and get them running in similar directions, especially when one is quite certain ( Read more... )

a regular at art and soul told me that daily affirmations are good for soothing what is ailing the mind. when i told him about my restlessness, my feelings of inadequacy, and my constant need for movement or change he told me that i should get myself a world map ( Read more... )

i feel totally nuts right now. i hate where i am. i'm sick of conflicts of interests and places.

and goddammit, whatever happened to a little respect?

these people continue to blow my mind.

home for the holidays but nonetheless, i keep getting crazy panic attacks like a million customers could walk through the door at any moment and immediately need all their venti white chocolate mochas, nonfat, with peppermint or raspberry and lots of whip cream. bah. currently forming another plan to become financially stable, may include actually ( Read more... )

my first day off since coming back from norcal and how do i feel? refreshed, maybe, but certainly not refreshed enough to look forward to starting again tomorrow. one day off after two weeks of 9-12 hours a day is like trying to get off of the couch you sat on after taking a few fat bong rips. painful, and irritating at best ( Read more... )

in my perpetual search for balance, i landed myself another job at art and soul. not only do i get free coffee drinks but they allow me 25 dollars to spend in the studio each month. alright, so it's not health insurance but the benefits are more than enough to keep me happy ( Read more... )

thanks rilke.

today i'm really sick of -isms and all the misunderstanding they create.

you don't understand me and i don't understand you...we already know this. so let's get back to this whole creating change thing.

i have an ugly scar above my lip now from smelly cat. it's a pretty prominent feature and, if i let you, you can run your finger across it and feel how thick the tissue is there. all the ladies at my work keep suggesting products for me to use to make it fade but, to be honest, i don't feel like spending hella money just because i don't fit the ( Read more... )

chris and i seriously need to work on getting our computer hooked up with internet. but in between the two of us we can be the flightiest, spaciest couple of people i know. so yeah, i'm at the ups library now instead which is bringing back crazy nostalgia for college and the like. but then again, seeing as i have nothing better to do today than go ( Read more... )

intimidation and assholishness = major buzzkill. like seriously ( Read more... )