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I like attention now and then...im not too crazy about it because honestly i can be shy at times but none the less some attention especially from males can boost your ego, id hate to depend on it though like some people do ugh...imagine having to hunt for self confidence ( Read more... )

so billy corgan as of last night has offically been added to my list of "people i would love to marry...or fuck".

smashing pumpkins put on a surreal performance last night. beautiful.

Daft punk was AMAZING. I danced allllllll night. I took my little brother, hes only 9 years old but he loves daft punk. it was his first show and lol he was dancing all night too, soooo cute ( Read more... )

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i would just like to say that i got tickets for one out of the ELEVEN sold out shows The Smashing Pumpkins have scheduled in san francisco at the fillmore! and so did my friends...and were basically extremely excited because we've talked about this day since the smashing pumpkins broke up.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

yes i know its 4:26 am but i am up and probably will be for another good 20 minutes so i thought id take advantage and update my neglected livejournal ( Read more... )

Ive had a few classmates die, relatives, etc...no one too close ( Read more... )

i was sitting outside in the freezing cold smoking a cigarette and realized that im not going to end my relationship...a part of me feels like im probably just spoiled and dont understand that sometimes you do have to struggle in a relationship and well the truth is i love nick too much to just give it all up.

so im giving it another

i dont think my relationship is going to work out afterall.

im not devistated...just tired.

we'll see how it goes, i just dont have a good feeling about this.

and im the one calling the shots here...its always me who ends up leaving.

god im dumb haha.