things just arent the same. nothing is the way it used to be. i cant even ask my own mom out to a nice dinner on christmas eve without her telling me "oh mark and i already ate. you were sleeping. sorry ( Read more... )

slowly, things are coming together piece by piece. from the things he said, to the things he did.
it is all coming clear to me now. more so as each day passes on by without him.

i have never been so lied to in my life. i cant deal with knowing i was lied to everyday for one month straight.
its making me so sick to my stomach and i wont eat. the ( Read more... )

its been 3 weeks and 5 days since i last wrote an entry and that also marks the day that Greg Holler hung himself. to me it feels as if its been almost a year already. its so fucked up and i cant believe he is really gone. ive never had a friend kill themself before. i think i cried everyday for about a week, even if that meant just one single tear ( Read more... )

I've come to realize that all I seem to want to do lately is sleep and stay at home; aside from work. I dont find interest in going out anymore and doing much with my friends. I'm not too sure as to why. The other day I was supposed to hangout with a couple people after I went out with my grandma, but when I got home I did not feel like doing ( Read more... )

it was a warm, but rainy summer night. we stood in the middle of kohler field, and kissed.
'cameras' were circling around us, as if we were in a movie. and it was perfect. SO perfect.

and now i sit.

all alone; crying.

listening to nothing but the falling of the rain.

i wish i never knew how to view hidden comments on myspace. i have recently stumbled on a comment from brittney to jamie. i wish i could just talk to that fucking bitch and tell her what the fuck is up so she doesnt have to be fucking saying shit about me when she doesnt even know me. and people wonder why i absolutly fucking HATE other girls. i ( Read more... )

Last night Jamie informed me he thinks he is starting to fall in love with me.
It was the most wonderful thing I've ever heard.

Well today after work I came out to see my car was broken into. The back drivers side window was broken in, the keypad was ripped out and laying in the glass on the ground, the steering wheel something or other was broken like they were going to steal the car, and the time was lite up with no key in the ignition. So they obviously did something and ( Read more... )

today was a really chill day, i liked it alot. after work i hungout with jamie and we went on a random car ride. we ended up in Lockport so i decided to go to the trailer park where my aunt used to live. they changed it so much i got lost for like 15 minutes, haha. i finally found it and it didnt look any different, i was quite surprised. there ( Read more... )