Sometimes i feel im never going to live. I am 19, i live at home (which i really dont like, but cant really change for lack of money) i have never been with anyone, and the last time i kissed someone was in the 5th grade. Im not ugly, im not mean or stupid or anything like that. I dont talk to much, and im a really good listener (i am told that ( Read more... )

Well not much goin on lately. Took testing up at my college yesterday. Damn that is a very long bus ride!! i left my house at about 10:30, got to the college at about 1:00. I should really learn to drive. I dont think it would be that hard. It seems a waist of time to ride the bus, but it is better for the enviroment. I should jsut get one of those ( Read more... )

Yesterday i went to the lakefair parade and saw this guy. I have known him for a few years. we arent close or anything, we met in german class. But everytime i see him i cant help but smile, because his is so beautiful. He came up to me and gave me the usual hi-five, but it sent my stomach flipping. there is definatly something about him that i ( Read more... )

I am 18 and i am graduating hs in about a week. i am going to be going to college a 30 min drive away. (I dont drive at this time so i would prob have to take the bus) I have family problems. i dont enjoy living there. i am scared of my dad. he has choked me in the past but it has been almost 4 years since then. last sat he called someone a freak ( ( Read more... )

if you think i am a wierd person for what i have posted, i just want you to know that i have only posted when i have been upset/moody. thanx for listening.

I have been reading a book called Annie on my mind. Where is my Annie? I want to cry but my emotions are so bottled up or pent up , Im not sure. I know someday probuly soon it is going to explode. I am asways pretending to be someone I am not, somewhere I am not. I go from angry to sad, Happy to mad, but always there is lonely. I want someone, ( Read more... )

An older friend got me a harley shirt for christmas. i dont know weather i should show it to my parents or not. my dad doesnt approve of harley because "of the rep they have" i think it is really the fact the my bro in law works there and my dad doesnt like him. i really like my bro, he is very nice but my dad is to stubborn to take the time and ( Read more... )

I am sick of being here. I want to go away, away from my mind, it is to loud. i cannot think straight. i am sick of being dizzy, i dont like the numbness. i wish i new what was goin on. i want it to snow but i dont think it will. it doesnt snow very often here. i miss the snow. my one retreat from life where i actually live. i dont know if this ( Read more... )