ok, so been thinking way too much about everything lately. car died, had to look at money more lack of it. and just got me to wondering when did everything get the way it was? if you can't find that moment where it got bad, and there was just this steady decline of it can you fix it ? or is it just beyond repair. if you can't remember the exact ( Read more... )

So this year at school was crazy.. graduated w. my A.S. and i might get some high honors thing.. believe it or not.. when my grades finally go through.. some stupid computer complication... and going back for my B.S. in culinary nutrition.. its gonna be hard but hopefully i wont come out too crazy ( Read more... )

so after this tri ending in march, i go on co-op... who knows where yet, but it'll be 3 months of either hell or fun.. im hoping fun ( Read more... )

I am wicked sorry about tonight.. there is no where else i'd rather be then hanging out with you guys, and being lola. but some things arent with in your control. and somethings arent able to happen. I didnt plan to have my car not sounding good, so it was sprung upon me as well. have fun tongith and i love you guys.

so time for an update. ive started some. then. didn't finish. but to update. i had my doctors visit today. and i have carpal tunnel in both wrists. both. it sucks. and if they dont get better soon. shits going to suck. so thats depressing me a ton. but. it means that im not going to work the 3 weeks after colombus day weekend. soooo that means ( Read more... )

so im dying my hair. its time for a new change. maybe this will bring other changes out ( Read more... )

i dont understand how one thing can be so perfect, and seem so right, yet can tear you apart at the same time. i cant handle my life. i feel like im breaking apart.

i dont know whats happening to me right now. it seems like im watching everything from the outside, and not really being apart of anything. its like ive put myself on autopilot and im just surviving for now. and im beginning to doubt all the decisions i have made in the past year. i dont want to go back to school in the fall. i dont see the point ( Read more... )

longest weekend ever. word of advice: never ever ever have your wedding or party catered on a sunday.... its a bad day for caterers. we are tired, and forget shit, like your wedding cake. what a big fuck up. bakers arnet allowed to have vacations, their replacements, dont tell the chefs all the details of the cakes ( Read more... )

its quite amazing how one week, even bringing it down to that one boat ride... it can change your life, change your views on things, how one person.. they can make you want to become something you didnt believe was possible ( Read more... )