i breathe in the future, i breathe out the past. unable, it seems, to live in the moment. it doesn't seem to matter how busy i am, i still have too too much thinking time. i'm not even sure myself what exactly it is i'm working through now. i think i'm trying to reconnect with a dream i once had. i'm trying to figure out what it is that matters,to ( Read more... )

i hate birthdays. i should be reflective and happy about what i've done in the past year. but instead, i feel lonely and unaccomplished. it's usually like this. anybody else feel this way?

the new feist album is beautiful. go out and buy it. or be lame like me, and download it. whatever. i already like it better than the 1st one. and that's saying a LOT ( Read more... )

have you ever tried to access a million wee memories at once, and scrunched them into a ball and were kind of amazed at the texture, intensity, and beauty of this ball? moments pop out, and i'm awed. i do realize that i sound like i'm talking a load of shite, but it's at moments like these that i do realize how lucky i have been, and that perhaps i ( Read more... )

i'm not very good at being alone...not very good at all...i suppose it will get easier, though. won't it?

is it possible to have one?? because i'm pretty sure that i do. rob had phd colleagues over for dinner last night, and cooked some lovely food. i then brought out a merenguey, strawberry, creamy mess of a dessert that i made, yum. followed by cheesecake. woke up feeling quite dreadful ( Read more... )

so i'm going to end up in one of two cities: katsutadai or kita-narashino. both small by japanese standards, around 150,000 pop. don't know why, but i have this feeling i'll be in katsutadai, which is near sakura city (which is also a city i will almost definitely be teaching in, we teach at a different school each day of the week). i'm not sure ( Read more... )

So...I got offered a job in Japan today. My number 2 choice. It's got everything going for it, other than average pay and the fact that it's in, god, Chiba. Chiba is suburban, and I'd be about 45 minutes away from Tokyo, and further than that from the neighbourhoods I really like. However, it's a small operation, only 10 schools. It sounds ( Read more... )

i had no idea i was so asian looking...and l. ron hubbard?? that is awesome.


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