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Today, I saw 2 of the best guys that I have ever known....Monsenior. Al, and Charlie Alles. Monseinor Al has been one of the guys who has always paryed for me and has always brought joy into my life through the rough times when I was in PA. Then there's Charlie......WOW! This guy is one of the best guys I could ever know. He is a volunteer ( Read more... )

I have found myself to actually type my boring, but interesting life and ramblings in here. For a while, I just thought taht people wanted me to just stop writing, but now I just told myself to have others fuck off, cause I am sick and tired of them taking my life away from me......FUCK THEM! Anyways......now that's out, I can go on and tell ( Read more... )

Through my last entry, I have really been thinking about my life. I have thought about all the things I have experienced in the past months, and I come to realize that all of this has been taking place for a reason. I sit here, watching a thunderstorm, and wonder why it rains....Is it tears from someone crying up above? Then I hear the deafening ( Read more... )

I find it really amazing how life, matches, and candles are alike. They are brought to life, can bring comfort, can bring hate, and then eventually die when their time is up. Some will last a long time, and some will last only a short time. Some will do what they were meant to do, some will destroy and cause hate and anguish, and some will not be ( Read more... )

Why do I feel like all I have done in life is fuck up? I feel like I am a rose. Once so beautiful, kind, puts smiles on people's faces, but after a while, I just wilt and die like the rest of the flowers in the group. I am like a candle....I can bring joy, heat, love, relaxation to peoples lives, but eventually, I will burn out and leave nothing ( Read more... )

So I had a great graduation ceremony, and great dinner. I even went out with friends later on that night to a strip club. I enjoyed every bit of it, and so did many others. I then found out today, that my girlfriend hasn't been in love with me for over 3 weeks. She shafted me in the back, and now I am depressed beyond belief. I just want to ( Read more... )

I can't take this anymore. I don't know what I can do with all this stress. Tonight, I have put myself at an alltime low. I tried taking money from my mom to help out with other things. Ya know, trying to help someone out. I end up realizing that it's wrong, so I give it back, and then I get yelled at for something completely different than ( Read more... )

I am so fucking pissed and depressed right now. I do so much shit for her to make her happy and feel lived, and then she calls me an hour before I have to go to fuckin work and tells a friend that she's depressed. The friend asks her to promise that she won't do anything stupid tonight, and they reply "I can't promise anything" and "whatever ( Read more... )

I don't know how to explain it anymore. I feel depressed anymore, and I can't control it. I feel like I have fucked up everything. I feel like I have ruined a relationship, and that it's just slipping away as I am still around. I know that I am just starting a new job and that I will be bringing in money once again, but I can't take my life ( Read more... )