Dear journal. I've always had a mild histrionic streak. So I remind myself. When two people are speaking quietly no matter how much I think so its probably not about me. I try to humble myself. But what about when it is? J'en sais pas.
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J'en sais pas mon ami. J'en sais pas.

Johhny Muir and Merlin, my two greatest ancestors.

Somewhere in a deep dark corner of the back of my mind, I think Laura may have changed into the kind of woman I'd be interested in being with again ( Read more... )

I secretly want to have wild sex with every one of my Ex girlfriends.

even the ones who werent good in bed.
Even the ones I never got to third base with.

even the ones I just had a crush on and nothing ever happened.
And I think of this whenever I talk to any of them.

I just got a call from Niki Knihnicki. Holy shit ( Read more... )

slide the cigarettes under the door,
I'm not coming out
for a few days more.
you can hear the records through the walls,
dont bother to dial
not answering calls.

[eremais] interested in anything esoteric?
[ElectricJesus] oxy,coke,speed,bk-mdma

St. Augustine is like a hospital.
every one here, who in their stationary choice to stay in a place hold on to a feeling, it is like death of progress, death of the self.

I dont wanna die in a hospital no, take me back outside.

I need some SPACE when was the last time I did anything with out her? this is getting intense.

I have sunk from riches to destitude and back three times, I have begged for stoges and played on street corners, I have ordered the top shel martinis and chatted on theater with an english stranger. I have been alone, and I have found true company, Bliss is not affected by loss of gain. And I am all of these simeltanously ( Read more... )