fuck...

[bobuh]

Im so sick of not being anything to everyone. im about to fucking off some one and go to jail. im sick of being used, oh yeah maybe if i were a piece of shit it be great. i dont even know why im freaking out, we just started chilling. maybe im just over reacting? why do i feel doomed then. why why why why why...maybe i was cursed by that old bitch

Comments

[tvreflection]

awh, dude :( what happened?

[bobuh]

mainly over reacted...but still im not holding my breath. i dont think things are going to go my way...but im moving kinda fast. its not her fault blah..she's being realistic and im being hopeful. dont know everything yet, soooo i guess i have to give it more time

[tvreflection]

ahh. well, it sounds fixable. i know it's hard being patient in such circumstances, you just gotta be the cool dude and relax :)

[bobuh]

bah, im too untrusting any more...i have too much of a hard time trusting people. she's at the beach baby sitting which is what she told me but i have this bad feeling like its all a lie, but i also think im soooo wrong and im gona feel like an asshole. ugh i just wish some one wouldve shot me last week bah

[tvreflection]

all good now, eh?
stupid myspace, you should update your journal more instead :D

[bobuh]

i just need a life. but since im not included in peoples lives i find myself here..in front of the computer. its like...no offense kinda like when i was with you, how you didnt want your gmom to know about me, i feel like im just man meat, but im moving too fast. i cant help it, i feel like she's got better control over how she feel's and isnt being fully honest with me? i dont know any more. i really dont want to care any more. i really just think its all me. bahhhhh i think she's innocent and im gona fuck this up probally haha. jill was right >.> im desperate? god im horrible. im losing my marbles