I just battled a cockroach in my kitchen. he won, and is still at large ( Read more... )

today my mommy and my sister came to my house with Easter candy and my electric guitar and amp. I played a bunch of my old songs... or, well, the three that I still love a lot, "Melt", "Lost for Language" and "Home". I need to write more. I'm so excited! all my songs are love songs, or figuring-out-my-brain songs. so I'm going to consider some new ( Read more... )

things are mostly better ( Read more... )

I want to quit but I'm not sure it will solve anything.
I literally cannot do a single thing without weeping. I want to be happy. I really do. I do everything I can, from the drastic to the stupid and mundane and desperate, to make myself smile and feel okay about my life. what's the deal ( Read more... )

school makes me exhausted ( Read more... )

I needed a minute away from the city. unfortunately, this week is going to be hell on earth now that I'm back... I'm working three double shifts to make enough money to pay my rent by the end of this week (we're not going to talk about how said rent check will completely empty out my bank account), I'm singing for a new casting director tomorrow ( Read more... )

it's so alien, back in my hometown ( Read more... )

tonight I was walking home from yoga and listening to Wolf Parade, and I saw that the trees were blooming on 4th Street. and I burst into tears. obviously. there are only a few perfect moments in life that can continuously take you by surprise, and Spring is my favorite ( Read more... )

I know that I feel unbalanced because I haven't been to yoga in a week. I'll go tomorrow... and everyday this week. and only eat salads and bananas. that'll feel good. the tattoo isn't painful anymore, so I think I'm ready to twist my spine around again ( Read more... )

I feel hopelessly fat and blah. I don't know why. I considered meeting new people, but I think I'm going to continue blowing people off and not going out to any new bars. I just feel like... I'm comfortable. being fat. and hanging out with the same people. if there are groups of acquaintances that make me any less comfortable, I don't need to go ( Read more... )