Fuck, I'm watching myself start to relapse, and I haven't even gained enough weight to be healthy yet. Fuck this disorder. I don't want to die anymore! 

Oh my damn. He proposed.

Noah... proposed...
To me.

I'm fucking marrying the man of my dreams.

Where did I go right?

...I'm getting married!

Hey everyone. It's been a while. I got back from New York last week. Since then, I've been plunged from the peaceful stillness of vacation right into my lectures and research and work. It's putting a strain on the progress I've made lately. When I'm busy all day, it's hard to make sure I'm eating ( Read more... )

I know I'm gaining, and I'm trying to be okay with it... I'm trying to focus on the health aspect of it. As soon as we get back, I'm throwing away the scale. I just have to.

God, sorry I've been so MIA lately, guys! I needed to get through some shit, and I was so sick for a while. I'm in New York for a few weeks, so I'll be on sparingly, but I'll try to keep up with everyone. I love you all! How are my lovelies doing? Leave me a comment :)

I hate sitting on wooden or metal chairs for more than a few minutes. Goddamned bony ass. I have to put a pillow on everything like my 70 year-old grandmother.

Oh, the glamor of anorexia.

Just made a new community, since it seems we don't have one like it...

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I started this lj because I can't be anorexic on my own anymore. -_- I love Noah, but he makes this hard on me. :(