fuckin mutha fucker i wanna kill someone and i hate everyone and i just wanna die. this world is suffocating me and its just all too much. i fucked up and i know it so just let me feel bad and im sorry and i love you all. i just hate how it all had to happen and i hate how i fucked everything up and you guys dont know how much i love you and think ( Read more... )

so my moms coming next week. she wants to take me out to dinner. i dont want to see her. and i have to get my wisdom teeth out. she wants me to go up to carson to do it because her friend georgene is a dentist and will do it for cheap. i think my dad will shell out the extra money cuz if he doesnt i'll keep my wisdom teeth no matter how badly they ( Read more... )

so i hate boys and i hate being awake and i hate how i use alcohol to erase my problems. but what i hate most is that nothing with change, that is who ive always been am i right? im halfway through algebra two and then i just have senior english and government and then im done with school. how awsome is that? i get to see funeral dress on sunday. ( Read more... )

i watched the notebook. it made me cry so hard. it was such a good movie. and it really makes you think, if a man could give you everything you wanted in life and you loved him a lot, would you still choose the guy you are completely in love with? is love enough to make it through your life if you ar not able to have your dreams. please comment and ( Read more... )

so yeah i havent been on here in a loooong time. i got occupied with myspace. i hate that site. im like obsessed with it now. so as you all know i was in vegas for the weekend. and it was awsome to see you guys. ive decided that i could do it more when i get money and just like come down for one night on the weekend without my dad even knowing. i ( Read more... )

okay this time its actually happening. im starting hsdp next week. that means i am getting out of high school. it'll probably take a few months, like 3 or 4, cuz i have to do all these fucking packets. but then im going to ccsn and getting an apartment in vegas. my dads gonna pay for just about everything. well atleast while im in college. you guys ( Read more... )

so get this, you wont believe it but i have been nominated for homecoming court. i guess i'll be a princess. everyone thinks i'll win cuz the other two chicks no one even fucking knows and everyone loves me... im sooo cool oh yeah you know it :) but the guy that will most likely win for prince is this black guy named anthony. hes cool and we are ( Read more... )

god i hate how everything i do gets fucked up. i hate it. i have the worst luck

i gots me a car. its a white kia sephia. stickers are in progress. i have like 9 already. its name is steve. school sucvks but im in sewing and cooking so its cool. i made nachos and the recipe was horrible. the guys that were next to me, there made me like this [ ] close to throwing up. theres was horrible. omg. im no longer with kenn. probably ( Read more... )

so i start work on friday. itll suck cuz i wont be able to hang out and have fun but atleast ill have money coming in. i need mnoney desperatley. i need a car. i need new clothes. i need new cds. i need to get the fuck out of here. man. tsol show on friday. some other shows coming up. they better be good.