Another moment of typing to an empty page of tumbleweeds is about to appear and then recess into my memories.

I read all of my old entries and thank god I went to therapy and tried everything I could. There was something blocking my vision from seeing myself as I am.

Safe to say, I am mostly recovered from this tremendous nightmare of fun house ( Read more... )

This so-called "food porn" does NOT work for Ms. Jenna.

She will binge (this is completely unheard of in her mind) and then purge (not so
unheard of as of late but still a big whopping FAIL in her book).
14 lemon cookies, the rest of the light pringles, a handful of light potato chips, and a
home made muffin. GOOD FUCKING JOB LOSER.

I'm going to fast ( Read more... )

I don't feel so fancy....

For the past week..I've been letting myself go just a little bit...and every time I felt like crap.

SO guess what?

IT ALL ENDS HERE.

FUCK BINGING.

FUCK MAKING MYSELF VOMIT TO SEE HOW MANY CALORIES I CAN RID.

FUCK FOOD!

Blech....I'm in Delaware visiting family and of fucking course I fuck up my body a week before I go.
God.  I ( Read more... )

That I'm trying so desperately hard to not binge, and purge.
It was never a problem before.
Why is it now?

I stayed at me and my boyfriend's friend's house since monday and left thursday.
I didn't eat anything on the first day all day. At night I had a 1/2 sandwich from Subway.
The next day I didn't eat anything all day then at night I had a 1/2 ( Read more... )

...to going back to my old habits. And BEYOND ( Read more... )

I'm not going to be coming on here for awhile ( Read more... )

This morning I feel a little better. Last night was so catastrophic I wanted to die ( Read more... )

I decided to not post this on a forum, because there's LOTS of food involved ( Read more... )

(this is day 2...because the 28th was a flub. I was doing fine...until I had to go to denny's ( Read more... )

Today, I've had a coffee, 1/4 cup of light vanilla soy milk, and a diet 7up ( Read more... )