well since the night i went like insane ive been avoiding the computer and my phone and doing shit. but of course i resort to eating. binge fest like no other..but then i weiged myself today and i have been avoiding the scale for like a week and a half because i have just felt so gross well i am at 118 so thats not bad considering my mind has ( Read more... )

yeah so. i gave the bottle to my mom when she finally got up a lil after 530. her and my step dad took it and came back like 10 minutes later and he was like i think you should stay home today and sleep- and i was like did you see the bugs?!! and he was like you mean the pieces of fuzz in a bottle? i was like whoaa dude. so i stayed home from work ( Read more... )

 so yeah i tried to write for the past two days but it just didnt work out. yesterday was mothers day. i passed out when i got home. i actually didnt do any shit at all yesterday..the first time in..a lil over two weeks. so on that topic..i noticed my paranoia getting worse after about a week of doing it all the time, but my paranoia has just ( Read more... )

 oh my gosh. i iam SOOOOOOOOOOOO gross. i hate myself right now. so my alarm went off at 4 again..so did my parents..none of us got up till like 6. needless to say we all obviously needed sleep and our bodies finally demanded it. but so to start off te day my gross ass had TWO reeces. well i didnt eat ALL day because i didnt have food or money. so ( Read more... )

 im so fucking annoyed. i really hate tis whole first shift thing still. today i had to leave at fucking five, which meant my alarm went off at FOUR. i wanted to hit the fucker with a baseball bat. except my alarm is my iphone, and well..i dont have a bat. but if either of those two things werent the case-i totally would have done it ( Read more... )

im not tweaken or anything. i think i need to be in order to write because as much as i could write..i just cant seem to get it out. hmmm. 
i hate being back on first shift. im having to leave at 5 in the morning, when im usually just thinking about going to bed at that time. i guess i just have to get used to it..
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 (i had to stop it was 822 AM-ive been up almost a full day on about 6 hours of sleep for the whole week...but ill continue to add on ( Read more... )

A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials ( Read more... )

well...i was right about going on a binge. i did like the whole fucking 8ball last night dude. i was fucking tweaking like a mother fucker. my heart was just going nuts i just couldnt stop. i was paranoid as a mother fucker though. i kept hearing things and thinking my parents were outside my door. then id be like no lauren its 330 in the morning ( Read more... )