well this morning i hit 115..and then i weighed myself and i am 114.2 ( Read more... )

i went running for the first time with the boyfriend yesterday morning.
on 1.5 hours of sleep. those damn perks kept me up.
i took the rest of them yesterday.
now im in pain and im just FUCKED.

but i didnt eat yeterday except a cookie and a piece of pizza..which i got rid of.
today i had..........hmmm...some gummi bears.

i made a velvet cake today it was ( Read more... )

i mentioned about my stabbing pains. i woke up at 5 this morning with TERRIBLE stabbing pains. i was dripping wet with sweat i was so hott and then i called my mom and was trying to tell her what happened and everythign s tarted goign in and out. and i fainted. when i came to i just started screaming. that went on for an hour. then they finally ( Read more... )

well i fricken am FAR away from my gw again. mother fucker. i have just been sittin on 117/118 forEVER. GAG ME ( Read more... )

well i think the bf wasnt expecting life out in the country to be like this. haha. hes going crazy. when i first moved here thats how i was too ( Read more... )

well im finding it really hard to get on here now that the boy is here. he hasnt gotten a job yet so hes ALWAYS home and i mean yeah i make enuf money to support us but i dont want to. i mean dude smokes a pack a day, and i told him he cant do that and he was all like well how much do you smoke a day and i was like ya know what i smoke over a pack ( Read more... )

well my boy is here. he got here friday. and he had some of that wonderful boy(heroin) with him and OH MY GOD. he only got me a half gram, i asked for a gram but he said nooo its all for you im not gunna do any thatll be plenty. i was like whatever. yeah he ended up doing both nights i did it so it was gone in two days. i KNEW that was gunna happen ( Read more... )

well its six in the morning. i couldnt sleep last night at all. i felt like i was dope sick. i had the sweats and my legs oh my fucking god ( Read more... )

 so that whole starting te fast thing yesterday didnt work. first my mom makes grilled cheese in the morning and i was like no im not hungry and she was like sit down with us and eat. so i threw half at the dog, then took off te crust and was really only left with like two bites..then i kept the second bite in my mouth and spit it out in the ( Read more... )

it's  like im scared to do more of my shit. since that one night where i totally freaked out i havent been able to do it. like i do a bump every now and then to keep me going but i havent done more than that. like tonight i was just going to finish my shit but i really just cant get myself to do it. im so afraid that ill see the bugs again and fall ( Read more... )