well...its been forever since ive been on here...i got head over heels in with heroin again. dammit. well it was a long 6 months of shooting that and i tried to stop so many times, but we were spending 100$ a day atleast and finally my now fiance(!!!) just decided that was it. i mean thank god for suboxen and subutex but shit im SO BOREDDDDDDDDD. ( Read more... )

its been far to long. im lacking on posting lately. lifes been a big BLAH. works been chaos and i have lost all control i once had. its been a constant binge seriously. i am back up to 116-118 ( Read more... )

well well. back on the computer. it wasnt quite two weeks thankfully. but anyways i totally screwed up and am up to 118 ( Read more... )

 i dont even know ( Read more... )

 well i have my period and even tho im bloated i weighed in at 113 today. so im still losing weight which is unimagineable because of my eating lately but i spend so much time in the bathroom i feel like i look at hte toilet more than i look at anything else anymore..
the boyfriend said he could see the bones in my back. what a fucking liar. trust ( Read more... )

 well nothings really new. same old shit different day. i dont know if ive just been purging to much or what but it feels different now. i mean my boyfriend thinks i have an ulcer cuz of the black stuff in my puke but i ignored that and the blood i sometimes see. but it feels so different when im purging it doesnt just hurt from like the stomach ( Read more... )

times going pretty damn slow since my mom decided to be nancy drew.
she like PLEADED with my step father the other day for me not to shoot up anymore.
she was like smoke pot i dont care if you smoke pot, and i was like i dont LIKE pot and she was like well tRY IT AGAIN.
haha. omg okay so she doesnt want me doing illegal drgs but POT is okay. maybe she ( Read more... )

 back to 115 yesterday ( Read more... )

 dude my life is over ( Read more... )

well guess im gunna be sittin in the 113 range for a while...cuz i didnt eat one damn thing today and when i got home i was at 113.6..and this morning i was at 113.2 so blah. all i had was 1.5 diet cokes. whateve ( Read more... )