I wish I was in love. I hate watching sappy movies or seeing ridiculously adorable couples becuase then I want to be just like them ( Read more... )

Like has been blah lately. I dunno. I'm wayyyy too crazy all the time and I never have any time for myself. I'm trying to stay sane but it's REALLY hard. Grr ( Read more... )

Getting certain things done for colleges feels amazing. I gave my teacher forms for my academic recommendations to Ms. Drew today. It just helps being able to cross something off of a list or throw a Post-It note away because I've completed it. Yay. AND I started making copies for my portfolio today. I have one done, and about half of 5 more, which ( Read more... )

Only a couple of people commented on my dancing from Saturday night. One girl said that her boyfriend got kind of offended and wanted to leave the area. And another person was a guy.. and he just said I was a freak. And then Jeremy got all up on me during Musical Theater ( Read more... )

This year's homecoming was the best ever. I had SOOO much fun. Dinner in Old Ellicott City was AMAZING (despite the fact that Elly works there and was giving me evil looks because I was with Eric). Then the dance was equally as AMAZING. Seriously. Eric and I had soooooooooo much fun being crazy and causing people to leave the dance floor and being ( Read more... )

I had a really weird moment today. I lashed out at Carlynne and pushed her and cussed at her. It was sooo weird. I didnt even realize what was happening until afterwards. And I felt really bad :( But I apologized to her and I think she was Ok and understood why I did it. But it was weird...

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I feel AMAZING. I saw the one person who makes me the most grounded today. My acupuncturist. I see her every other week and every time I go, I need to unwind. I get SOOOO stressed out and most of the time we spend the whole hour with me venting. She knows both me and my mom so it really helps because she understands what I'm going thru, plus she's ( Read more... )

The root of all my stress and unhappiness is my mother. She is the one who drives me to get drunk every weekend ( Read more... )

Today Ms. Adler called me grumpy but actually for one of the first times since this school year has started, I was actually happy. It was weird. I think it's because I was being completely me and crazy wearing all my Wacky Tacky clothes. It just kinda annoyed me that Ms. Adler said that becuase I wasnt trying to be grumpy. I was actually talking ( Read more... )

Senior year has NOT been fun. I have been SO stressed over colleges. I started freaking out last night because I realized that October starts on Saturday and my application for Emerson is due on the 1st of November. So that means I have a month. And so I went to my guidance counselor today to give her all of my forms. Then I need to do more for her ( Read more... )