I never should have left.
as soon as I leave here, I get washed away in the tide that is life.
I've gained weight. I'm now 136 lbs.
I have thighs that resemble tree trunks and a fat ass, face, belly....everything.
Its okay.
I'll just lose it all yet again...
Yoyo dieting sux....Why do i have to gain it back? Im such a gluttonous pig.
I'm gonna set my ( Read more... )

so, today was my first day at the gym. I worked out for two hours and really enjoyed myself. I didn't realize how much i'd missed it :)
My weight is 128 today.

I can't handle these young children posting........ITS killing me....!!!!
I'm sorry kids but I KNOW THE LIFE!
Its not fun, or pretty or cute in ANY FREAKING WAY!
You children frighten me.... 

That kid infuriates me. Why didn't someone warn me 15 years ago that I would lose my mind when she hit the teens?!
I am SOOOOOO frustrated right now, I just want to cry. And, OF COURSE, she's the 'favorite' of all the family kids (being the oldest, most helpful) 
She pulled such a mean thing on saturday. She freaked on me because I wouldn't give her ( Read more... )

So, yeah....I have been eating only healthy crap and maintaining average 1500 cals/daily for awhile now. All i've done is GAIN ( Read more... )

 I cannot believe i have not posted since august before tonite ( Read more... )

my B-12 is FUCKED! I haven't had a shot in 6 months (usually every 3 weeks) and my fingers and toes are COMPLETELY numb and tingly....hmmmphhh
 

Hey kids......I have been gone for WAY too long!
I am back up to 132 lbs (im 5'2") and I am feeling REALLY bad about it!
I have recently been put on cardiac meds (metoprolol) and i have to see a cardiologist because my arrythmia has gotten out of hand. Ive been in the emergency room twice in five weeks because my heart rate was over 230 bpm both ( Read more... )

I will do my best NOT to eat today. Ive had three coffees @ 70 cals each-210 cals
 I MUST get off my ass and do some exercise, at least crunches and such,if no endurance/cardio.....

i suppose i'm not having the best couple of days. I did it again last eve, I ate supper. I made homemade oregano/parmesan dinner rolls for my b/f. I was super grouchy so i went into the kitchen to bake(i find cooking/baking to be therapeutic)
 I made him left over spaghetti and meat sauce with fresh dinner rolls and decided I wanted some. I made ( Read more... )