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Still Surviving
and its hard 2 keep from feeling sorry for myself
while dealing
ive done so much thats kept me from
healing
ive lost too many years
to fear and self loathing
too many times have i tried
and learned nothing
too long have i put kept the african in hiding
bottom line
im still surviving
now just bcuz its over
and i got through it
doesnt mean
i stopped
using ( Read more... ) -
i dont know u at all
after every beer
ive been asking myself
"do i still feel feelings?"
after every tequila shot
"do i still feel feelings?"
but not in that order cuz everyone
knows beer before liquor
never been sicker
im however many shots down
2 beers and the rest of the
6 pack to go
hoping to make it til store
opening so i can be be drunk
tomarrow
thought about walking to a
24/7 ( Read more... ) -
SOBER DATING
love is crazy.
i dont know what the fuck the
other person is doing when
im not there
and i dont wanna fucking care
but i do.
i used to be the one using
and maybe the abuse meant
attention
and they were scared enuff to
hit me which meant they
felt something
anger out of jealousy
meant they were afraid of
loosing me
i was valuable
they needed me
dating the socially ( Read more... ) -
SOBER.
i just dont know what to talk about
i try to bring up subjects im interested in
but something is just not connecting
im not connecting
im frustrated
and unamused
and angry
why did i go through these things
and they didnt?
even when i tell them, they dont know
filth & wisdom
Sober.
so im not completely sober
not the AA kind of sober
just the this is as good as it ( Read more... ) -
Still Breaking
still on the verge of breaking
mind going thin
i just wanted
to let you in
you dont know what it means to me
privacy
how much i love
to be alone
theres a lot of things i used to be -
og #2
eye hate it here ( Read more... ) -
og kickin it
These are some poems i wrote an '08 when i was working in yellowstone national park in Old Faithful ( yes i could smell the geysers and thought it was my roommate farting until she moved out). at this point in my writing i was trying to get over an ex, a lover, and my addictions.
Dont come closer
I didnt get closure
Though this 2 would pass
hanging on ( Read more... )
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