Despite pent up feelings of guilt and regret, I'm feeling amazing right now. I swear I'm bi polar ( Read more... )

I'm still feeling incredibly guilty about yesterday. I keep trying to get my mind off it, but I can't. I wasn't rushing to get anywhere. And now I feel like crap because of that ( Read more... )

The thing is, I don't even know why I left ( Read more... )

School is so hard. I used to not have a problem sitting with homework, figuring out shit until I understood it and KNEW I was going to do well in a class. But, here I am completely unsure if I'm ready for exams. I'm almost positive I'm not going to do well on Monday's Physics exam. I wish I could grasp it. I guess I could go in for extra help, but ( Read more... )

Tourney this weekend- sucked. Played 40 min of every game despite having had a really bad couple of mono-y days. Mom was here though. We stayed in a shitty motel the first night and I got like no sleep. Very upset. Last night the room was better though, and I'm glad I wasn't here for the shit that went down at my apt. Kelsey's friends decided to ( Read more... )

It shouldn't take me three hours to shower and get dressed. But I'm back to that. Fatigue. It's been terrible the last few days. I can't focus to study and I've got tests coming up. I fear that the stress from the looming exams, and the upcoming tourney (complete with Mom coming into town) is sending me into a mono relapse. I really feel like I can ( Read more... )

What a terrible weekend ( Read more... )

Hmm ( Read more... )

I don't have much to update. I've been exhausted, sleeping a lot. Friday night I went over to Jen's to have dinner and go out with her. We made it to 9pm and decided to go home and to bed. Never went to the bar. I slept from 9:30 to 10:30. I've been handling Becca's birthday fine ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going on. I feel really stressed- a lot more than I should per my life situation. All of my muscles are tense, I keep clenching my jaw, the tiniest things frustrate me to tears ( Read more... )