ok so people suk and im changing my lj... so tell me if you want to be one of my friends on my new one. you should either just comment here or call me... kuz there are drama starting bitches that wont leave me a lone now...lol

and i wil delete this one soon...

why is it that everyone always says they will be there no matter what if you need to talk but yet no one whats to really hear your shit and no one really cares. everyone just wants to be the nice one.

fuk everybody.

i dont think i have ever hurt this much in my whole life. i could really kill myself at this moment. and to tell you the truth i dont know that i wont just yet. but i dont even know what to say. i feel more hurt and betrayed then i think anyone in history could have ever felt. its like im a 7 year old and someone just cutt off my feet and hands and ( Read more... )

last night when i was just laying in my bed i realized a few things that i had never really thought before. i was thinkging about how i get so pissed off at people for 'fucking me over' or just 'being mean' to me and i thought so many things out that helped me deal with my own sanity. i love kelly my mom my nana my daddy my grandpa and me. thats ( Read more... )

maybe i should change... maybe i shouldnt... anyway it goes i need to just chill the fuk out! i always tell kelly that there are somethings that you just have to do in life and you shouldnt ask questions just do it.... well i think i need to take my own advice here. i mean sometimes you just got to know how to keep your cool and not let things get ( Read more... )

i find myself falling more out of love with kelly everytime she makes me feel like this. its almost to the point where i just expect it. i hate her sometimes.

i need to get a life outside of kelly. i love her and i want my whole life to be with her... but shes so mean to me. what if it dont happen? i have nothing else to fall back on. no bestfriends (that dont hang out with WHORES), no place to go chill, and no one to love. not that i want to find someone to love but i want to find something i could fall ( Read more... )

have you ever had someone take every bit of life inside you and just shit on it? where it makes you wish they would have just shot you in the head when they met you? i mean why is it so important to think only of you and no one else? i do everything i can just to get pushed away. i cant take it. i need a bullet. i need something. if my mom werent ( Read more... )

i cant wait till tonight! it will be much fun! and i cant wait till someone dies... it wont be long i know... DUMB PEOPLE!!!! AHHHHHHH

I <3 mEE lA grOw!!!!