Comments | boonefrog: i'm gonna buy a gun and start a war...if you can tell me something worth fighting for.

boonefrog

i'm gonna buy a gun and start a war...if you can tell me something worth fighting for.

Jan 20, 2006 23:34

i have not felt so much in a long time. i feel like my heart has been dormant for at least a couple months. whether it is intense love or intense pain, at least now i am feeling human. funny how the older you get, the more it takes to realize that you are alive. i miss her so much ( Read more... )

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sweetp288 January 20 2006, 23:57:20 UTC

Billy, whatever little consolation it may be, you can always come by my room, even if all you do is sit on our couch and not talk. Heck, I'll come hang out at your house if you just want someone to be there. I know we aren't good friends or anything, but I do think I can relate to that feeling you have of not having anyone, and I also know that sometimes the most remote acquaintance can brighten things.

reality_applied January 21 2006, 05:14:00 UTC

give yourself a few weeks. stay inward. do your work. do your job. be lonely. it's important to allow yourself to be lonely ( ... )

boonefrog January 23 2006, 16:02:42 UTC

thanks, john. i am glad to hear you are happy. i think about you a lot but i am usually too intimidated or unmotivated to call you. by "the Other" do you mean sommer?

reality_applied January 23 2006, 20:05:48 UTC

by "other" i mean anything outside of how you define yourself. you know yourself because you have a process to which you invent yourself. you can understand and observe that self and how the perspectives of that self will change. but the other is inherent unknowable because it is outside the individuation process ( ... )