fuck this

I'm tired today. Went to the casino lastnite. won some money but then put it all back in. grrrr I hate when I do that. I need to learn to quit while I'm ahead. seriously ( Read more... )

well shit son. I got up before noon the last 3 days in a row. that fuckin money better be here and dude better have some shit. I seriously will freak out. Klonopin is not enough. I need to float on a cloud far away where I just don't give a shit. Of course I can always smoke some ganja and hash, but then I can't drive. lol ( Read more... )

so. obviously it's been ages. I don't even know where to start really. The guinea pigs and the weiner dog are good. I miss Alaska. 6 years is much too long to stay away from home. Working in pharmacy for 3.5 years was quite the experience. so is taking care of my grandmother, but I got burned out on that really fast. The end of the year cannot come ( Read more... )

ugh...my dad's taking forever. I.NEED.COFFEE.

yeah... today pretty much sucks... I didnt sleep good. really crampy. I think he hates me now, even though he wont say it.. he thinks that he is the reason today didnt happen. I wish he would understand that *I* dont even understand why I get like this sometimes. its something I try and explain to myself. If I don't understand, how can I help ( Read more... )

Do you ever wish you could freeze frame a moment in your day, look at it and say 'this is not my life ( Read more... )

Okay so I didn't post an update as promised. So sue me =P ( Read more... )

If anyone still reads this LOL. I haven't updated much since the whole myspace thing, but I'll try.

summer has been loooooong... and hot. and kind of sucky, actually.

anyway.

I will have a nice, long, juicy update soon. Promise!!!

wow. so its been forever. again. I'm still the same old me. lol. I officially no longer live in Alaska. I miss my mom everyday, though. *sigh ( Read more... )