i summoned up a big ship and crashed it into the universe, the red blade reaching with a hand and slicing all your guts from out under your neck, in the soft spot where the pain needles stick and spread the venom around. a silent rage against the inescapable hatred that wells up and unleashes the demon stench inside. seven or eight miles later ( Read more... )

please don't read my blog, it contains sensitive information designed to lead you into the hole you built for me

see what i'm talking about

strong blood ( Read more... )

not caring

fuck off, like totally for sure

In the dream of twilight I floated through a long divide. Carved up, now the mutilated guts are in fiji doing lengthwise dancing cross circles in the dust. there comes a time when you must rise up and smash yourself against the sky, the sun, and the moon, and see what the bleeding heaving gasping ripped up fragments of your soul reflect back at you ( Read more... )

there is a sentimental cleansing tablet of ice laying sideways in the grated table, grating crackling eardrums splitting twisted bursted veins. in a slow kind of way it moves, tracing the flow of information in the dream. i was driving myself around the bends of the hills, i was sitting in the back of the van. there was a song playing. the sky was ( Read more... )

there was the time i was taking the train back from portland oregon. the moon shone and fog gently seeped off the grass in waves. if felt magical and strange, like the earth was slowly lifting it's veil ( Read more... )

i was shaving my eyebrows in a deserted cabin in 1962 at Winnipeg Falls forty miles outside Toronto. My left foot was rotting away into luminescent shards of flesh. They twinkled at me from afar. I thought, "Oh fuck its happening all over again." Three hard knocks came at the door. It was Melody, the unforgiving good Christian girl from across the ( Read more... )

goddamnit ( Read more... )

granted, it is 3 am and i've had a pretty epic crazy day...

i think i might be evolving into a new phase of gabo/xanaar/blueleafex

doing what i'm doing and what's gonna be done.

finding a part in the music collective

yes!

"so like i think i totally have this awesome theory bout this day being the best day ever.. it's called optimism!"