another attempt to pick up writing? why bother? the answer is similar to the one i give inquisitive children, "Why not?" a theme, perhaps, to my life - a life's mantra? i'm not certain that is a positive or negative thing, but at least it is constant, prevalent and powerful. “Why not?,” has a certain sense of mystery associated. there's not an ( Read more... )

had a dream last night where PR0N hired me back. it had been 3yrs, but everything was where i left it in the Archive. i set down to work, but was confused with the new system. i settled instead on attempting to read a serious snailmail from a close friend about an accidental and unwanted pregnancy. as i was sitting there reading i was ( Read more... )

so angry when i go out and have fun - can't i see how miserable and alone she is? don't i respect how she feels? how dare i forget, everything i do and say is a personal affront to her - she birthed a daemon, sworn to make her life a living Hell, after all ( Read more... )

she was there with me again, in my dream, all beautiful and so pale almost fluorescent. fragile and slightly translucent china fingers, arms, cheeks - her hairlessness hidden under a thin cap (if she removed it the baby would scream and scream.) we, her family, husband, mother, were all planning route, the best way to get her to the hospital. ( Read more... )

so this is where i start writing again? hiatus ( Read more... )

puppy pictures!

http://picasaweb.google.com/grrlsix/GeorgieGirl?feat=directlink

3 out of 5 pups expected are at this moment born, still waiting on the other two. this is kind of gross, it is also a new beginning for the pups and perhaps me as well...

last night/this morning we are having extremely rare thunderstorms.

my sister died on the morning of 9/11 from Pneumonia and complications from her Melanoma cancer.

the sky, at least, is crying.
i, as of yet, feel nothing - numbness is a basic human survival instinct. we fly to Georgia tonight.

two pitchers of margaritas and a DavidByrne concert later and the world feels a bit better. the ExtraActionettes helped too.

wooty!

tomorrow: puppies!

so here's the big things (as catching up is difficult and i've not been in the head space to share ( Read more... )