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bop_radar

Depression survival

Nov 11, 2012 15:26

In the last months I suffered a breakdown (panic attacks) and relapse of my depression. At times I've been so disconnected I had no idea who I was and my thinking has been paranoic and distorted (but I don't recognise it as such at the time). However I have lucid times as well and still hope to be able to stay off medication ( Read more... )

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elli November 11 2012, 20:25:27 UTC

*bighugz*

bop_radar November 11 2012, 23:28:44 UTC

Thank you! :)

jlvsclrk November 11 2012, 20:52:51 UTC

*hug* So sorry to hear about the problems you've been having, but very glad to see that you're developing other coping methods. Drugs are a great tool for coping with depression but psychiatrists all too often fail to strike the right balance. Be well!

bop_radar November 11 2012, 23:47:46 UTC

Meds helped me a lot for a long time--they just also bred a lot of dependence and a ton of side effects. The main problem was no one ever encouraged me to reduce them once I did stabilise.

capnzebbie November 12 2012, 02:18:39 UTC

Thanks for all the links! I'm going to favorite this--a lot of good info. I'm glad you're finding things that are helpful *HUGS*

bop_radar November 13 2012, 03:01:37 UTC

I'm really glad if you find it useful! :) It's very hard to trust that *any*thing is useful when you're in the middle of an emotional storm, so partly I wrote this to remind myself. :)

norwich36 November 12 2012, 07:33:10 UTC

I'm glad you seem to be finding a way through this. *hugs*

bop_radar November 13 2012, 03:01:59 UTC

Hi Nora! How are you? :)
Thank you for the hugs... I'm hanging in there.

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bop_radar November 13 2012, 03:19:20 UTC

Thank you! It is terrifying, I know, to have gone through something so extreme and it feels like that threat lingers on--after my attacks I was in a fervour to fix myself, and afraid of every sign of anxiety and/or depression, of which there were lots. Just this week (and it's been a couple of months, please bear in mind), I managed to kind of shift out of that ... I learnt the best thing with panic attacks is NOT to be hypersensitive to physical symptoms. For weeks my heart beat too fast but what I learnt is not to give that too much importance, just say 'ok, my heart is beating fast' and direct your focus elsewhere. That helped with the physical stuff but then I was still extremely, extremely emotional, found concentration hard, thoughts raced and were very negative (including a lot of flashbacks to past pain). I think I have to learn a similar way of detaching from that ... ok, so I still wake up in anxiety, I still have nightmares, I still feel anxious and teary and have negative thoughts and a great many fears. I found this week ( ... )