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all im saying is..........NOVEMBER 3RD 7:14pm.

15 days

it has been a while since ive updated. things are going good for me and shawnee, we hit some rough spots but we got through them, except for i dont think she likes me hanging out with katie pederson that much. but other then that we are doing awesome. im currently looking for a job so if any of you can help me out give me a call. well thats about ( Read more... )

i would like to think that this is very true.

I really miss seeing her all the time, but i guess its so she wont get annoyed of me. we will make up for the lost time in the future. i cant wait for the future mostly cuz i hope it has her in it, you know what, i know it will have her in it.

Fidel
Her cowboy

that would have to be shawnee. she makes me feel wanted, loved, and needed. im so glad i have her in my life. all i need now is for my best friend to come back. when that happens, my life will be as close to perfect as ever ( Read more... )

why is it so hard for me to trust people? maybe because today i realized that you dont really know your friends. i feel sick to my stomach when i think about trust. i think i need to sleep, if i can i mean. TRUST.......screw it.

do shawnee doesnt call me during the week, i mean is that so bad????? yes yes it is. i have to wait till the weekend to even talk to her? its crap, but hey she is well worth it i just kinda wish she would call every once in a while, am i not important enough for her to call? maybe we will find out sooner or later if this means more then i think. ( Read more... )

My mom went into surgery today. she is getting surgery on her knee, i sure do hope that everything goes ok. when she gets back people should come over and visit her, im pretty sure she misses all the other daughters that use to be at this house all the time. well i dont have much to say cuz my mom is about the only thing on my mind right now. so ( Read more... )

This whole scheduling dealy needs to change, they either need to change the school time or i need to get a different shift cuz its been less then 3 days of this school/work thing and i cant stand it. i need to see her, i wish summer was here again so i can see her. her ocean blue eyes, her full lips, her soft brown hair. i miss her kisses ( Read more... )