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RIP Canadian prince :(
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20 days
It's been 20 days since little Benjamin passed away and today has been rough on me. Chris and I are trying to get back to some resemblance of normalcy but we both know it'll never truly be the same... We took a lot of baby things to storage today and that was rough because I'm realizing it'll be a very long time till I see those things again. I'm ( Read more... ) -
Half way there!
So tomorrow marks 21 weeks! I think the worst part about this whole thing is the WORRY!!! I'm always such an emotional wreck! I have crazy hormones but also some legitimate fears about things going wrong :( I hope they are all proven wrong but I feel the sheer mental agony of being scared something bad will happen! I'm an ill person trying, praying ( Read more... ) -
Things I've learned during Pregnancy (20 wks down 20 to go!)
1. Almost any and all weird symptoms I feel can be directly blamed on hormones and pregnancy, this includes but is not limited to bad moods, weird pains, and all food cravings be them good or bad.
2. You loose control of things you took for granted that you once had control over, ie. holding "it" in, temper tantrums, general coordination, ( Read more... ) -
Wedding Shmedding!
Okay so I am trilled Chris and I are engaged and if you want to go into technicalities we are also already married because we had the commitment ceremony but I am still left to plan this somewhat big wedding for the majority of our family and friends to attend next June. This "wedding planning" is what I am not cut out for one bit :( The first task ( Read more... ) -
Craziest Aunt Ever!
Okay so this post is all about how I absolutely strongly dislike my boyfriend's aunt Kristina! First of all she's a chronic liar, examples being several times where she has been caught lying. Second she creeps me out by hitting on Chris she's 30 btw and doesn't like being called Aunt, then denying it and claiming shes in a happy marriage when they ( Read more... ) -
Still Rainy but Smiling
I'm usually so depressed in these entries and for the past week or so I've been battling a bout of depression, I'm glad to report that it has subsided and I am once again in higher spirits. I thank the lord, my Chris, and even the family here who may at times annoy but in other times they are just what I need to get my mind in a better place then ( Read more... ) -
Two sleeping pills & a thunderstorm.
So I'm listening to Q101 which is something I wouldn't regularly do at home in IL but here it is a reminder of home. I got the station via
an iPhone app. Is the iPhone 4 incapable of anything other than running flash? Today I got it to be a mouse for my MacBook, and now it's playing radio stations from home? How cool is that? Tonight has been pretty ( Read more... ) -
Reflection on this journal. Complete overhaul effective ASAP!
So as I read a few of my last journal entries I've been a pretty sad sap. Nothing much has changed I mean it is 2:31 am and I'm writing on LJ on my phone in a pitch black room with Chris deep in slumber next to me, not much has sadly changed at all. Although I am much more aware of the sad bitching and moaning I do on this blog, but thats okay ( Read more... )