i thought i would have missed a lot taking a month long hiatus from the eljay, but apparently march is too busy a month to be posting on websites. i guess lj's been discarded in favor of the myspace 'blog'. pity ( Read more... )

or at least that's what i'm hoping is the reason for my rather bleak state of mind at the moment. 
things that are wrong: 
1)  i'm awake very close to 4 a.m. posting to livejournal for the first time in over a month because i haven't the attention span to focus my creativity toward a more constructive end. 
2) i'm still in anderson, S.C. working for ( Read more... )

yeah, you dont care what's going on with me, but Merry Christmas!!! all the same. Hope everyone had a great one, now let's get geared up for BOXING DAY! Yee-ha! make sure to give all your Christmas leftovers to your house servants. 'tis the season.

im a mess
oh yes, oh yes.
what to do?
boo hoo boo hoo
i do not know
oh no, oh no.

i am not happy. i've not been happy, really happy, in a long time, actually. i'm edging on miserable here, and it's not something i've ever felt before, and it's not something i think i can deal with much longer. it seems like everyone who just graduated is having a rough time making their own transitions, but it also seems like they have people to ( Read more... )

"you will never guess what i saw yesterday..." 9/21
On, i believe, Augusta Road, somewhere between Greenwood and Belton, we passed not one, but TWO gas stations charging LESS than $2 per gallon for regular unleaded fuel! This is personally exciting for me because i'm lame that way. I guess this is one of those things you can file under the heading " ( Read more... )

it was so nice seeing her and talking to her. it's been so long since we've sat together and talked like that. i want to do it again, as soon and as often as possible. i need it, i think.

"I want you to hold me
I need your arms around me
I want you to hold me...bay-bee" - "American Music"

it was such a beautiful day today. and i got to spend all of it outside. but i was working. and i was thinking of *her*. as i have every day since before Lear. i just cant stop.

Ask me to live for you. Ask me to devote all that i have and am and will be to you. Ask me to be at your beck and call and every command to answer with "as you wish" and not to sleep until it's done. Ask me to put forth all my effort into making you happy. Ask me to hold you forever and rock you to sleep and rub your back and say "Sh, no more ( Read more... )