never have i had such hateful and sickening feelings towards my life and others.  I hate myself. Im sickened by people.

wow... just wow ( Read more... )

Long time no post. Not that I havent thought of LJ but havent been on a comp i felt safe doing so. Ah well, I missed this place ( Read more... )

So today marks 2 years of me and brit "being together" even though we have been close a month or two before that. any who ( Read more... )

Wow, shes amazing... I like how she isnt the sharpest tool in the shed, or how shes gross like me, and how sex just because shes bored is a good idea to her. But most of all she believes in me and never puts down my dreams and goals, no matter how much she doesn't like them

so its been a long ass time since i wrote here. I haven't had much online time, and what i have had has been on comps i didn't feel cumfy enough to put this url in its history file ( Read more... )

 :-(

its easy to be confused and disapointed when you cant count on people, $10,000 in debt, "forced" to work, seem to have 'lost" one's friends, and all attempts at changing things for the better backfire...

its no wonder people spend their life in the bottle

The t wo baby spruce trees are dying!!! AH! i need help. We dont know what to do...

 So a fair amount has gone down in the last week. Iv been in dekalb, thats where I "live" now. Its also where I work. Its sad but I told Brit Id pay her back before Dec. ends, So a job it is. Luckally its prolly the greatest job I could get other then a Ren fair kinda job. No joke, it kicks ass. I Can cook when I want, and bring my art in too show ( Read more... )

"WE COULD BUY A PLANE ( Read more... )