I've just been feeling so fucking lonely. And I've been feeling sorry for myself,too. Why can't I just live happily ever after, and then die? I want, just ONE TIME in my life, to be IN LOVE, and MAKE love, not just fuck. I want to kiss the person I love, and feel their love consume me. I want to dance on cloud9, and walk around, high in my own ( Read more... )

I just can't stand the fact that my life is not lying out infront of me. I was talking with my sister on the way home about my feelings about Robbie, about how I want my life to be monotonous, and to just succeed in every aspect where my biological mother failed. We both came to the conclusion that I'm a weird person. Hehehe. I'm just not like ( Read more... )

ABOUT YOUYour full name::Glenna Renee Barker Age::16 1/2 Height::5'6" Natural hair colour::Red Eye colour::Brown Number of siblings::3 Glasses/contacts?::Nope Piercings::Yup Tattoos::Nope Braces?::Nope FAVOURITEColour::Red & Green Band::Slipknot Song::Vermillion Pt. 2 Stuffed animal::Ozz Video game::Zelda : Ocarina of Time TV show::Sunday Sex Talk ( Read more... )

I swear I should just go out and shoot myself RIGHT NOW. There's plenty of loaded guns around here, it's just figuring out how to get the safty off that's the problem. *cough* <<; Robbie signed on not too long ago, sent me an IM that said "this sucks", and he signed right off. I'm so paranoid that he read my last post, seeing as I had given him my ( Read more... )

It's amazing how things can change overnight. How feelings and emotions can change in a split second. It's been about a month or so since I'd talked to my ex, Robbie, and he's now in his old town, where he was when I met him in the very beginning, and he's figured out that he's not in love with his girlfriend anymore. Well, we were talking, and ( Read more... )

Yes. Yes it is. Well, I just got back with my sister from taking my niece to the doctors. Fun fun. Now I'm talking to Sylv and Greg. Whoopwhoop. Jah. And, I think I aughta get going. I'm bored out of my mind, but I thinking I'm gunna get onto my compooter and play around a beet. Whoopalahdoo.

I don't understand myself. I am just one lonely mother fucker. I talked with Greg for a few minutes today, and now I'm starting to get my feelings back for him! I am now numb to Dave, but the feelings are coming back for GREG!! I'm going to start crying here in a few minutes. I mean.. I'm not LOOKING for sex right now. I'm not LOOKING for physical ( Read more... )

I have to work tonight... yet again. I'm stiff all over, and I need to sleep. I have to bathe the dogs, then I think I'm going to take a nap. Life is confusing.. and I'm going to end up fucking it all up for myself, as it is. I want to cry. I need to cry. I want love... I need love. But as the tears don't start flowing, neither does the love ( Read more... )

Yus, new email. And everyone who's one my buddy list, I already sent an email to... but hell, I'm going to amuse myself.

my_meconium@hotmail.com