two days ago i sat in the bathtub and cried. it'd been a few days before that. we're both miserable. days go by, and we both up these fronts. we both have this zombie routine refined. but it doesn't change the fact that we're both crumbling inside. it's hard to breathe. it's hard to get out of bed in the mornings. the time goes by so fucking slowly ( Read more... )

our wedding is booked! yay!!!!! my best friend is moving home soon. and thank god. with chris back in louisville, i am seriously going crazy. i feel like a goddamn zombie. -sigh- anyways, i need to find a photographer. -nudges elizabeth- let me know if you're even willing to discuss this possibility after the last wedding fiasco..-chuckles- and if ( Read more... )

i go home wednesday. i cry every night about it. hell, i doubt i'll make i through this without crying. home. this is home to me. here. these hills. organic food stores. playgrounds. sunday and tuesday drop off points. low humidity. snowy nights in the winter. -sigh- this is slowly eating me alive. nothing ever used to make me feel like ( Read more... )

the morning started off great. we had the girls over last night (-gasp- regina actually let me handle bringing them to the drop-off point and whatnot..), so i had to get them up, get them ready, feed them breakfast, and just play step-mommy which can be kinda fun...it was really cute getting to scoop jordyn out of bed and snuggle with her and plop ( Read more... )

i get to go home this weekend. that's kinda exciting. it's costing us a couple hundred bucks in gas for one whole day of actually being there, but i guess it's worth it. it'll be fun. and my entire family will be there..so that's nice. i haven't seen ANYONE all summer long. we're thinking of renting a car, though..as to not put the miles on mine ( Read more... )

today started off kinda rough. i forgot to set my alarm clock to go to yoga. or as chris' oldest daughter puts it, "oga"..-ggl- that always makes me laugh. kids are cute. anyways, then i watched Daily Show again, which made me laugh even more because our Vice President was compared to Highlander. haha. have you heard this shit about him NOT being ( Read more... )

i put two new pics up on myspace..they're SO cute, too. miss eliza took them when chris and i went to visit yesterday in columbus. we had a blast. so you must go to see. if you don't know where my profile is, email me. i'm not posting it publicly. though, i'm sure if you're savvy enough, you can find it. we also hit cinci today, which was ( Read more... )

this'll be quick and lacking details that i'm sure many of you are dying to know..well maybe not many of you..but oh, well..lol. yes, chris and i are engaged. YAY!!! it was wonderfully romantic in oh, so many ways. -s- i took a few pictures of the ring, but i don't have all the tools to get them online either. -l- so you'll have to deal with it. ( Read more... )

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i bought a new car! it's beautiful. -g- it's a 2007 nissan altima. it's slate gray, leather interior, moon roof, spoiler, all the bells and whistles, etc. etc. my, is she gorgeous. chris is scared to drive it. lol. i get to pick it up today, all sparkly and clean. the spoiler had to be installed. it even has some new CVT transmission that gets ( Read more... )