so the thing that i've been working pretty feverishly on and kind of self-destructing over?  that was the talk i gave this morning.  which went well, after the hitches ( Read more... )

my grandma died this morning.  She was in her early nineties.  she was scheduled to move from my parents' house into a care facility down the road from them on October 5.  she felt like she was being put away - "warehoused," she called it.  my parents have taken care of her for something like eight years now, and my grandma had medical issues that ( Read more... )

inaugural hypothesis ( Read more... )

personally: busy as all hell, trying to finish up important papers, having trouble focusing (as usual around now), otherwise happy, healthy, etc.

i wanted to (like i'm sure everyone else) talk about the elections, because i think that what's happening is really weird.  i'm glad that obama won - i think it's pretty awesome for a lot of reasons.  he ( Read more... )

i hate being so stupidly over-sensitive that a reproach can make it really difficult for me to work.  it's a problem i've tried to deal with, but even if i can get myself to work when everything's ok, if anything's wrong i get panicky and very, very distractable.  and it's my fault - reproaches happen, one has to know how to deal with it without ( Read more... )

also, it's annoying remembering remembering dreams. 

so today in my class we watched the tristram shandy movie (which is, by the way, really funny).  we talked a lot about meta-narratives, and how to distinguish between narrative and reality, and how often it's very very difficult to do so, if there even is a difference.  i was asking them how they thought that the critical theories we learn in class ( Read more... )

working at getting the dress longer.  thanks, hannah and angie!  also, got the bike grease out of the pants ( Read more... )

does anyone know how to stretch a sweatshirt so it's longer (not wider) again, after shrinking it?  my new sweatshirt-dress is now scandalously short, after washing it on cold and drying on low, just like the care instructions said.  do i just need to get it wet in cold water and tug at it as it air-dries ( Read more... )

so i'm in portland!  i always, always forget what it's like to arrive back here.  i was trying to explain it to my father: that even the overpasses are familiar, that the the angles and colors of the roads and the trunks of the trees, the windows of buildings, the depth of the sky, it's all so piercingly exactly right, even if i don't belong here ( Read more... )