I am afraid of everything it is really quite annoying. My current most prominent fear is my failure to write exactly what I have in my head, and that I am talentless, and that I will never be a great writer. I am so scared. scared.scared.scared ( Read more... )

Here I am, manic as ever. I woke up bright and early at 5 randomly. I went to sleep late last night and I think work has got my anxiety going because I am NEVER up this early. So here I sit with a hot cup of coffee, and think. I have been thinking lately how hard it is to make yourself happy, how hard it is to do the things that YOU want. I can't ( Read more... )

A ghost, pale and free ( Read more... )

It would be senseless for the author to try to convince the reader that his characters once actually lived. They were not born of a mother's womb; they were born of a stimulating phrase of two or from a basic situation. Tomas was born of the saying "einmal ist keinmal." Tereza was born of the rumbling of a stomach ( Read more... )

being strong is unbearable. you are always in the back of my mind ( Read more... )

shit sucks. the end.

I don't feel like talking about my trip. It was good and bad. I am just so glad to be homeeee ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say I have the best boyfriend ever. I leave for New york tomorrow so yesterday he took me to get my nails done hahaha got some fire wok lunch and to see a movie. It took FOREVER to get my nails done, like 2 hoursssss, and he just sat there next to me while the asian did her thannngg. We saw Indiana Jones and had a huge thing of ( Read more... )

I am going to New York. I am super excited. I put in my 2 weeks at the daycare and I couldn't be happier. When I get back I'll be jobless, but there are a million places to work, so I don't think it will be hard to find a job. It worked out perfectly because I had already planned to quit, I hate it there. This vacation is going to be amazing. No ( Read more... )

I hate when I work so hard and then i let everyone in and i am let down, not by them by me.
This is why everything I have is private. The first and last.