I have the shakes again and am eating as fast as I can to attempt to get rid of them. I lost my appetite last night. How fucked up do I have to be? I am so confused. My first caserole turned out wonderfully.

Spring break was crazy. Tuesday was the first time I have ever blacked out. The original plan was to go to Martini Ranch a yuppie bar downtown. I went over to Joanne's after work and had some pizza and chatted while the girls got ready. I had a couple shots with Patrick and then the girls came out and Patrick made us all lemon drops. 1 part ( Read more... )

I am back in San Diego for spring break. I still can't seem to sleep and am tired of listening to my mother, and Joanne complain about my weight. I saw Mike and Suba tonight which was nice. I was over at Robie's tonight while drunk and that seemed to have caused some problems. Too many memories. Robie's poor mother is divorcing but it is ( Read more... )

I have found a new drink I really enjoy. Jameson and Bailey's. Yes its sweet but no it doesn't make me a chick. I drank every night I didn't have school this weekend. Thursday-Saturday. The San Fransisco clubs are open till 7am and I got $1 drinks from 10-11pm. Though I didn't like the frisking but then again my buddy managed to get his flask ( Read more... )

So before I felt like things were being ripped from my body and now they are actually being cut out. It had started a bad week to begin with and on Wednesday I awoke at 9 with 6 hrs of sleep and couldn't go back to sleep and started freaking out. Just too many bad thoughts. At 10am my stomach started hurting so I had some cereal hoping it was ( Read more... )

Life is so full of irony. I couldn't sleep last night to at four am I watched Jarhead. He got so angry when his gf sent back his shirt. Sadly they didn't do a john doe letter back. I had no idea what that might feel like until today. It is nothing unexpected, in fact I am very happy it happened and I hope it goes well but it still hurts like a ( Read more... )

A some point you have to start over again because you have screwed up so many times and so badly that something has to change. Well I took a huge risk. I am now dating this girl Rosely. She is very nice. She is graduating this semester with a psychology degree. She wants to help special ed kids. Laura is currently not talking to me. I am ( Read more... )

What drives people to be assholes. I just did something that I always hate having done to me. I was talking to a friend and she recognized my tone for irritated or angry and asked me about it and I told her it was nothing. I can't stand when people do that to me. I even know now why I did it. Surely I could have come up with some excuse. I ( Read more... )

Had my first final yesterday. What kind of bastard gives people a final on a saturday. Its so perverse. Then I went to a party with Rosely. They had the best booze I have ever had. This hosts sister made me a screwdiver using Belvedere vodka and then added some logonberry wine. It was not so good but I drank two of them. Then had Belvedere ( Read more... )

My body is showing me what I did to it last week it really didn't like. The full on cold symptoms hit me today and after a sleepless night with stomach cramps on Monday. I drank everyday over the thanksgiving break and hardly slept. Thursday night I took Laura out and we went drinking and shared a cigarette. It was the first time that I have ( Read more... )