i feel bad for the kids on degrassi when things don't go right for them. RIDICULOUS for realz. sheesh. i think i empathize too much....if anything happens to anyone, i feel it. for daaaays. one more time class: RIDICULOUS ( Read more... )

ugh. too many things that i can't plan out. and i HATE not having a plan for the future. things are changing, careers are switching. i don't even know what i want to do anymore. paralegal yes. teacher yes. emt yes. drug and alcohol counselor yes. argh. issa gonna essplode. today is st. patrick's day. i still don't have a valid ID, so i'm looking at ( Read more... )

Life is just blah. You hope for blah, and sometimes you find blah, but mostly it's blah, and waiting for blah,
and hoping you were right about the blahs you made. And then just when you got the whole blah damn thing figured
out and you're surrounded by the ones you blah, death shows up and blah, blah, blah... -Andy Botwin-weeds seas4

merry x-mess journalers. hope it's happy for all of you. i'm looking forward to a very mediocre time, but i love my family so i don't really care ( Read more... )

saw you sunday. one hour. saw you tuesday. 2-3 hours?

when will i see you again?

my heart hurts from all of this.....i hate leaving my room....if music isn't playing i feel like i'm gonna freak out.....i slept with your guitar last night.....i miss you.

mother, you're crazy. really crazy. you stand here screaming, about everything. little things. i've been through a lot these past few days....i don't need you crawling on my back as well.

all it ever takes is that one extra mishap to push me past that point....and i hate the rocks that lie beyond the line.

i feel like i'm going to die if this is actually what's happening....this can't be happening....i didn't do anything....i swear on anything and everything that i didn't do anything....please....fuck....please not like this.

numb to bone and i have lost my senses. i just wish...no. there are too many. i just wanna cry. i hate being depressed. it's the only thing that comes with winter that i don't like. my birthday is in two weeks. i'm going to be 21. i feel like i should be excited....but i'm....not? i try to be. i try to find little things that make me smile. i try ( Read more... )

I never think I'll miss it here, but when I've been gone for so long....I login (how do I never forget that info?) and just start reading. and start remembering. I've realized that in these past few years, so much has happened....a lot of big things sure, but look at all those little itty bitty things that went through these pages....amazing really ( Read more... )

gosh...the past few days have been pretty freakin sweet. i have so much that i wanna tell you guys....but i don't wanna put certain things in print cause then anyone can see em....hmmm....damnit. some things are just better left unwritten. but it's been good. it's all been good. linzo's bday was....wow. you wanna talk trip....it was a trip. a good ( Read more... )