So its finally hit. We broke up last Spring but still hang out as friends everyday. It was this week though that the loneliness finally hit. I got so good at this before and I feel confident I can do it again. There is just such a solid emptiness in my cave of a bedroom. I do miss the hope of anything crazy happening at any time. Living in ( Read more... )

So they fired my boss and offered me the supervisor position after working full time for two months. The interns and employees sing my praises and its fucking rad to feel so supported. I've always known I had decent leadership qualities and I'm really looking forward to pouring my heart into this job. I have a vision of a place that offers amazing ( Read more... )

So this week I was promoted to full time at my new job. I love the work, its just outpatient substance abuse counseling. I'm the oldest and most experienced person there and I feel that I've really been an asset to them. I love that they treat me so well. Its still so surreal to me, walking 15 minutes to work through the snow in a huge city. I ( Read more... )

So my time in Gainesville has come to an end. 8/14/15 I pulled out of Citra for the last time. It was surreal. I was so fucked up emotionally. Sadness, joy, excitement, nostalgia, and pride all at once. Spent time with the family saying my farewells. I love my life right now and I feel so blessed to be in a position to move to Chicago without an ( Read more... )

So Steph and I just got back from vacationing at Sequoia and Yosemite. That place is fucking gorgeous and so much serenity. She was a great adventure partner. I really appreciate people that can show resilience even when you get trapped on a grounded plane for four hours. I got to get really close to a wild bear, climb some rocks to see waterfalls ( Read more... )

So I was falling pretty hard tonight on the drive home from St. Augustine. I spent the day with my immediate family and Stephanie. It was super awesome that she was so at ease around them. We did some beach, pool and putt putt. But it was the drive home that was noteworthy. She was DJing and I told her how being around her makes me want to listen ( Read more... )

So Stephanie and I are dating. I'm so fucking happy and infatuated. We are being pretty realistic about everything and not rushing in too fast. We both realize its early and could still find incompatibilities. I'm just so excited to be excited about somebody again. I think I'm going to take her on my trip to the NW, I want to adventure with this ( Read more... )

So seeing Chris this week changed my life. He was so jacked. We talked for hours about his diet and workout routine. I immediately went home, bought kitchen stuff and cooked my first meal. My fridge is full of vegetables and protein with no processed shit. I'm working out more and staying active. My goal is to be the healthiest I've ever been by ( Read more... )

The sun and its warmth have returned. Amazing party last night, great date with Stephanie earlier tonight. We got dressed all fancy and went to Southern Charm. I've been dating a lot recently but being celibate. No kissing or nothing, just spending quality time with beautiful women. It seems to be working pretty well for my emotional health. I've ( Read more... )

I've got so much feeling inside me right now. Is it a coincidence thats its 5am? There is a pretty woman sleeping on my couch. Thinking about love I've had in the past makes being physical with something less seems so ugly. I am so grateful to have experienced true love and that in some ways I still get to experience it in my friendships. My allies ( Read more... )