so last night I realized my real problem, I am a drunk. so there I was at the alley three long islands in and when I went to hug gracie I knocked over a stool and it went boom, then there I was at some guys house that I didn't know paying super mario world with some straight boys not knowing which dirrection I was going, it wasn't raining it ( Read more... )

I watched the ravens today, there were three flying infront of the mirrored windows, three then six slowlygliding, one of them had missing feathers on its wing, then as if trumpeting i grandure an eagle even slower glided through. I often think about what it would be like to be a bird, not a care in my mind nor a reason to touch down always ( Read more... )

so here to, I am just a bit concerned on whether we will be able to ascend when it is the appropriate time, although this is my solemn vow, if we do not leave in may I will, I have spent quit enough of my life stuck in this hell hole. I have to leave, there is no other choice, I am concerned as well though, if I am flying alone will I get stuck in ( Read more... )

so I munched a yellow jacket and am buzzing away. work is busy and I can't wait till its over, its nice though the time passes faster when im buzzing, I put the whole order away myself and now my back is yelling at me for all the effort, this weekend ryan and anthony and I are taking a trip to seward to see the sea life center, should be fun and ( Read more... )

so here to, the move is almost upon us and things are sticky, I go for like months without anything happening in that area and sure enough as soon as I am about to leave bam there is cuteness in front of me, I am just too nice of a guy to just start something that I will have to finish in like a month or so so I guess I will just end up being ( Read more... )

another weekend falls behind me with little more than faded strobe memories of laughter and alcohol blur. I find more and more of these in my recent past and usually they are followed by a time of saddness and self loathing. Why is it that the one who tries to destroy me the most is not my enemies but rather myself. bother, Ryan and I went to ( Read more... )

well, here to, my bday weekend was eventful, my mother threw me a psychodelic birthday party that was pretty fun, my neices and new nefew were there, my brothers and my sister and brother and sister inlaw, she made punch with multi colored ice cubes and put freaky colored streamers everywhere it was cute. After that I went to the bar alone and ( Read more... )

so last night was my birthday and I went out alone and after six beers, four shots of tequilla, two white russians, and two long islands, I was a bit buzzed. I ended up going home and passing out on my couch and woke up and alas it was not longer my birthday. I heard there was going to be some underground rave tonite and am interested in going if ( Read more... )

so here i am again another year to add to the notches on the wall though they stopped measuring my height a long time ago. Now its just one more candle that i can't blow out, I have never been very good at extinguishing all of them since I was like 10, well this year none of that bullshit wishing for a million dollars, this year im wishig for a ( Read more... )

today I have decided to compile a list of all the songs I want to take with us on our road trip. Its funny waht you want to bring with you to the wastland, a reminder of the way things will be when you finally land on your home turf, although this landing will be in a home that i have not built yet, I am waiting for ryan and anthony to visit me at ( Read more... )