thursday is upon us and it will wurely be a weekend that puts all of my patients to the test. I am excited and terrified at the same time.

well its tuesday of the soon to be week of hell and i just clocked out of my first of two shifts today. I walked with a whopping $6.01 in tips, WHOA not all at once. im over days like today and by the end of the week im sure i will be hating myself.

So yeah, its been a while since i have written although i think that if i get into a habit of writing at least a little a every day maybe i can get back to where i was a year ago. So here is what is up, Jamie and I broke up for a while and last night i found out that while we were broken up he had sex with a boy that is a mutual friend. We were ( Read more... )

rumors of my demise have been greatly exagerated. Columbus has been a rocky road of ups and downs, although I believe that I have found low ground as of late and I am relishing in its tranquility. So here we are, this week kicks off pride for columbus. I am working at a gay restraunt/bar and am excited/terrified about this comming weekend. It ( Read more... )

so Ohio is nice. I went to a foam party the second night we4 were here and let me tell you what they can't see in the foam shouldn't be done in public (maybe that is why i had so much fun) anthony and ryan were a pain to drive with I was sure that one of us would be dead by the time that we got here. We were all on each others last nerve. The ( Read more... )

So, after getting home from work ryan was being a jerk. He was stalking on the phone with jimmy and was mad that i was upset about the lameness of him and anthony going to bed so he decided to huck a glowstick at me and it hit me in the face, mad as hell i stormed out sure that he would come after me, alas he did not. Pissed and walking i had ( Read more... )

i often like to pretend that my life has meaning. but truth be told it has very little bearing in the whole scheme of things, and by scheme of things i mean the inner and outer workings of the mechanics of the universe. I never truly understood why in movies and cartoons that as soon as some one met god the first thing out of their mouth was "what ( Read more... )

so what the fuck, that song drowning by ak1200 i never heard the words exactly till now.... what the fuck.... where have I been the past 5 years, dead? my fear exacts itself. Poet? I think not. fool is a more appropriate label, double "C"'s how sublime...

it seems to be a never ending cycle, i work all week I get off i fly throug my weekend as if no time has passed then back once i get to chicken gumbo day its like the rest of my week is gone allready,

shortly after moving to seattle I fell in love like a thousand times in a month after moving there. Every boy that touched me in my special places, was som secret romeo stealing my heart, then throwing it away. that song looking for love in all the wrong places seems to be my script once i move to a new place, I go, ho it up, then attempt to put ( Read more... )