i dont know if im the only one. but feeling like u lost someone is horrible. change is horrible. and as much as i know it doesnt involve me, i cant stop from feeling like that. its like everything doesnt go well, even though it is for everyone else around you. it should be a happy feeling, cause u know that everyone is having fun, but then you ( Read more... )

i need to go on a fucking date...and then after that date...have mad wild sex. and then not call the person the next day...:-p

i guess i can confidently say that you can read me like a book. sometimes ud skim a few pages, other times you're really into it. but the most important times u skim. i guess its a good thing. hate to bring all the details into you life, i mean its just dumb u know? there are times when i feel like im totally invisible, and it sucks. but ( Read more... )

wow, this feels kinda new to me again, but so comforting to be able to vent somewhere and update, people who actually read this, about my life ( Read more... )

sometimes life moves faster than you'd expect...and other times it comes to a screeching halt. i dont know how fast its going right now, but i do know that i am lost.

ive never felt this lonely before in my life...but its not your fault.

thanks for all the talks you've given despite the fact that i was an ass. im glad i met you, and honestly u have been one of my best friends if not the only one that has gotten to know me without speaking to me. thats what so great about you. and thats y u r truly my best friend. thanks a lot! fucker

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i dont get it. why do these things always happen to me? where is it when i need it most?

yay im finally back, but the only thing that sucks so far is the fact that i cannot get to sleep right. im up till like 4 am this morning, and then at around 530 dave calls me for breakfast, and im like shit yea i cant sleep. so we go and now its about 130 but really 4 am in china time. im tired...but i still cant wait till i get back to irvine

so only gots about another 36 hours. then ill be on a plane and outta here...i kinda dont wanna go, bt at the same time i do.

but i cant wait to see my friends and family again!