so tonight i went miature golfing with a friend...and it was so fun. for a while (like i always do) i thought C wasnt having fun...but turns out that C had a blst. C told me that it was a good idea that i planned miniature golfing cause C would have never thought of it! This thursday we're suppose to go out to LA cause C doesnt work on friday, ( Read more... )

feelings of loneliness and solitude has once again knocked on my door, and i blatantly opened it. how dumb can i be? it doesnt even seem like i try to bar them out. im stupid dumb and lost. i think i need help. and i dont think a relationship would help. cause i know i cant deal with committment. this life sucks. i hope my next one will be ( Read more... )

have u ever heard about someone saying..."u made me like this. i didnt want to be like this. ur the one that asked me out...not the other way around." whatever bitch. if thats the way u see it. fine. easier for me.

long time no entry eh? so...whats new? nothing much i guess. these past few months have been ahrd...but i think im starting to feel numb to all of this. which is not where i wanted to be or feel, but oh well. maybe itll dissipate. i hope so. but until then, ill just deal with it.

so yesterday around 830 i fucked a 34 year old. actually i think its more like 35. is that old? is that bad? i feel dirty...but it was good.

god this wong fel hung techno mix on this shit is fuckingawesome! FUCING awesome

so its fun to do some ectasy on your own...lol. this was an interesting night. popped one at about 1250 am. and its kidna fun typing and shit and seeing all these things move. especially the music...god damnit if u can hear what im hearing now...haha

yay, i found the g spot and hit that shit good! haha:-p so i was told by the person...haha

Serious Fucking LoT Party - New Year's Eve - Make Hiroshima Look Like a FLESH WOUND - ROCKING ALL NIGHT AND MORNING LONG - Praising LoT and Substances for All - Bring Liqours And Beers, All the Honnies you can find, Male or Female! ROCK IT For LoT - If you don't know where it is - YOU NEED TO BE SAVED!

yea, so life only gets tougher as you age. but why the hell doesnt anyone ever tell you about these things or prep you?! those fuckers! everyday, i become more and more a person i am not liking, and everyday, i try so hard to put up a mask that doesnt fit. but its so hard not to. i dont want to make ANY of my friends feel bad for me, or make ( Read more... )