lala land. Voices outside, voices inside. It was dark, no it wasn't. That was hours ago. What about now? light? no, not quite, something else hazy, distant, not so distant. ...not so not so distant. hmm. Rat...atatat...tat..tat...tat...tat. The cat refuses to walk in a straight line, drunken like, down the side walk, into the bushes. That's a trick ( Read more... )

It’s bloody quiet when I come out my room, I open the door and look around, it’s all dark, so I close the door again and lie back down ( Read more... )

So uh, I’m bloody fuckin sick of bitches tryin ta tell folks all da shit dey doin wrong when deyz the ones with they goddamn foot in they mouf. Particularly this one bitch at my job who’s always askin me questions and trying to dig into my psyche like I need help or something. I’m so sick of people lookin at me n thinking “since she is different we ( Read more... )

What's worse is sometimes I don't want him. He's just a bloody burden. Trying to think of how I'm going to fit this itty bitty helpless human being into the fucking world, into my fucking life, and somehow protect him from the bad shit. Everything is either straight up bad shit, or bad shit in disguise. I do not want that responsibility, but I didn ( Read more... )

I been gettin along with her, really, I have, mostly. Or maybe it was an illusion. But then her "menopause" starts kicking in and she's "pms-ing" and she's quite an ass, I can't stand her.

what the fuck is "pms-ing" anyways? I always thought it meant you're on you're goddamned period. Well goddamnit! whooptee fucking doo bitch! You're fucking ( Read more... )

So...I left a message on her phone ( Read more... )

So I came all the way over here cuz boss man said she's work today but I guess they changed the schedule which means I stayed down here for nothing. I called her though, and tried to say the same shit that I said ( Read more... )

I still can't stand my mom ( Read more... )

I was reading my entries and I just realized that people might think that's the truth. Wow, enough of it is, maybe even alot of it is but I'm not going to clarify which is what. Lmao. I dunno, that's just a funny thought. It's all fiction, even the real shit is fiction, because I don't believe in it any more. Ha. I don't believe in it anymore. Once ( Read more... )

...I wanna get drunk. Part of me can't wait til december because nothing will stop em from getting my shit. right now, even if I were to go looking, no one's going to by a pregnant chick a drink...no one's going to buy me a drink ( Read more... )