i feel like giving up, i want her back, but it doesn't matter. she doesn't want to come back it feels like so often now. even if she did i couldn't let her come back now. she wouldn't be happy. i changed for her when she left, and after she left i was crushed. it's been hard to keep the change going w/o her around, but i have to change even ( Read more... )

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone ( Read more... )

some xmas this is going to be ( Read more... )

sometimes i consider just giving up. i wonder if there is a point to anything at all, i wonder why i try and i wonder why i cry ( Read more... )

What happened to forever?

I'm not sure what to think anymore. So many things telling me so many different things. I don't know what to do. I can't see the things that I used to see so clearly. I miss her dearly, and desperately want to have her back, I just don't see it happening. She doesn't know what she wants. I did know what I wanted once, I think that I still do ( Read more... )

Why do I care so much about her? Why is it I miss her so much ( Read more... )

wow, completely forgot i had a journal here..

perhaps i'll actually update it at some point w/ what's been going on.

:o i have a journal :p