my heart is killing me.
every time i breathe i think i might die.
and my eyes are so dry it hurts to blink.

I've lost my appetite.

I guess i'm dying.

Oh well, today was a good day, nontheless.

I went to matt's house after school.
the weather was beautiful.

when matt laughs i love the world.

i played outside for the third day in a row.

we went to the abandoned house today.
i was afraid i might fall through the floor.

i want to sleep in there some day.
you're invited.

Matt's in my art class.
i like it.

he's stuck with me for one whole period.
every day for the rest of the year.
i like it a lot.

hmm.

today was warm.
it made me want to fool around in a field.
be cute. joke. laugh. a lot.
and hold hands.
only we dont know how to hold hands very well.

maybe eventually.

the past few days have been rough.
I havent felt like this in ages.
I'm not liking it.

You dont know how important it is to me.
I have no idea why.

It's not raining and its over 50 degrees.
why am i alone? I dont know. but its ok.

Becca came over today.
we walked to goddamn steph's.
We ate dinner!
then we walked to the goddamn ass slide.
it was so high. and very pretty looking.
then we walked to goddamn sheets.
then laura's house.
then goddamn burger king.
it was a very nice day. i love days like this one.

do i sound like Holden?

it's easter.
that rabbit scares the bejesus out of me.

terrifying, horrible, traumatizing.

on the bright side. i got candy.

I was sick yesterday.
puke sick.

today i ate pizza. it had mushrooms on it.
i HATE pizza. i HATE mushrooms.

but i didnt feel like complaining.

this break is sucking. hard.

I'm still alive. not dead.

The computer just doesnt seem all that important.

today is Brittany's date of birth.
Happy Happy!

we're going to the movies tonight.
THE RING TWO! i'm phsyced.

you will like your present.
i promise.