Boyfriend is away for the weekend by choice. He's having more fun than he ever has with me. I know it. I just nag. I want to die.

I am thinking of giving up social media for Lent, which starts March 1. I can allow myself once a week if it's on my desktop at work, but I'm going to delete the apps off my phone.

Definitely Facebook. Maybe Reddit and Tumblr too. Maybe Instagram and Twitter.

Definitely Facebook though.

This thing is old

our family's trip was pretty nice. i got to hang out with my brother more than i usually do. i managed to come back not sunburned, which is a huge accomplishment (although i got tanner... just in time for chinese people too see and not white people. GREAT.), and also come back not fatter. yay! :D it was annoying watching my family eating dessert in ( Read more... )

so... after a very big scare last night about visas and maybe not being able to actually get into china, i think it's all sorted out now. they are having us get a different visa so we don't have to wait for the paperwork and i sent in all the stuff for that today. hopefully it gets here in time... it -should-, but things can always happen ( Read more... )

flights are booked. rory and i are sitting together, and i got a vegan meal and like, 15,000 miles on my continental airways account. pretty sweet ( Read more... )

so, now that it's pretty much set in stone, i am SOOOO excited that i'm going to be in BEIJING for THREE MONTHS doing a HOMESTAY. ahhhhhhhhh!!!! and in less than 5 weeks!!!! omg ( Read more... )

so, according to the public scale(s?), i've gone from 130 to 125 lbs in a week. i don't know if i believe that though. that's a LOT for a week. i was planning on 1lb/week. i guess it's good? i'm not going to let this make me feel like i don't have to try hard anymore though. i'll assume it's a fluke (it probably is.. weight fluctuates normally ( Read more... )

心痛い。さすがあたし。。あたしよりもっと幸せな人がいるなら悲しくなる。本当にわがままなの？？わがままじゃないと思いたいけど。。あたしの心がこわれてる。。。馬鹿じゃん>.<
でもね、しょうがないよ。あたしはあたし。心はこうやってしょうがないよ。
「ね、ほら。俺、あなたより幸せよ。そして、俺の生活、俺の母語、あなたはいつまでも分かれない」って言うことを感じてる。ちょう悲しい、もう止めたい、だけど彼のせいじゃないよね。
心がこの理由に痛いのでこわれてる。

i was talking to victor today about how i was in middle school, and i realized how fucked up i was... like, suicidally depressed. i wondering if i can find my old diaries.. i'm pretty sure i threw them away. which i know is never a good idea, but it's a good way to get over something mentally. i never told anyone before because back then you'd be ( Read more... )