is my life dedicated to screwing up the things that make me the happiest, right now i just want to be by myself all alone, hopefully with a sharp object, yeah suicide, the thots crossed my mind i dunno 6 times in the past 12 hours so thats about what 2 hours every time, anyway i am not happy i am so stressed out i just want to beat the crap out of ( Read more... )

so i decided im only gonna work foodmaster weekends, i want a life thats outside work and school and i dont care about the money, so fuck JFM even tho steve is comin back YAYYYYY, i kno alot of u hate him, but i like steve he has alwasy helped me out soooo much but anyway, yeah so i work at the math lab where i am right now i do nothin and get paid ( Read more... )

ill make this short cuz i gtg soon, well i havnt finished my paper yet and i should have 6 hours ago....lol w/e my bad ( Read more... )

im so confused, with everything, mostly life itself. what am i? who am i? i dont kno anymore, or maybe ive really never known, every1 that has known me for most of my life will tell u, ive at one point fit every category, freak, punk, wigga, wasian, prep, jock, nerd, and even the helpless romantic, i dunno who i am anymore, im growin my hair out ( Read more... )

hello there, havnt talked to u guys in a while, since my v-day rant. life is better....i ve done alot of things, and thinkin, dangerous it is ( Read more... )

well its valentines.....could i be happy? no i cant. y u ask? because its valentines the one day ur sposed to spend with that special some1, i have no1 to spend it with, not to mention what day tmrw is just makes it all the worse, im sick of it i want to forget bout the relationship we had and start over just as friends but i cant. it hurts too ( Read more... )

well lets see i havnt posted in forever, ill try and post mutliple times to ge tup to this point...lol ( Read more... )

eh does every journal entry i eva make just come out negative....? it certainly seems so. well lets just start the basics merry christmas happy new year. for new year's eve well lets see i got a speedin ticket...and then i hung otu wit ana and sarah, ive got pics and im willing to share for aprice....j/k. on new years day well i went to mangos ( Read more... )

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