school is fun. i miss santa barbara, a lot. i miss friends. i love mac and cheese. and i love nbc's late night line up.

i'm in my living room freezing, symbolic of how my life has been and how i feel inside. cold. i feel like im missing something. my relationship with god is good. so i should feel complete, but i dont. something is missing. havent figured it out, but its not there. and i feel cold inside. i feel as if i'm that person who will always be there for ( Read more... )

i'm so over everything right now. friends, situations that never fix themselves even with my desire to fix them, and just so much other stuff. i never imagined life could do this. my life is crazy. i'm so frustrated i can't even talk-describe-put into words how i feel ( Read more... )

you can answer the question only with a band of your choice song titles ( Read more... )

so this is my first, and maybe my last thursday in sb. so sad, ending of era. i had an amazing time here, and i'll be back many more times! but, i cant wait to go home and hang and be with my friends. yes ( Read more... )

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ha. so below, i totally biffed on my journal entry. it was supposed to be some emotional entry, but some how everything got pushed together. whatever. it all means the same, just in a different style.

my initial plan was to come on here and complain about how much my life isn't going the way i've wanted it to go, and how i'm not happy because i haven't had a boyfriend ever(!) and that i have just been down because rejection can be just too much to handle when everything else is too much. its just so much more than what i let on. iam so ready for ( Read more... )

okay, yesterday was so emotionally charged. i drove home from sb, and i convinced michael to hang out with me instaed of going to work. so he went tanning or whatever, and then he wanted to go get his check from hollister. no biggie right? wrong. i was wearing this skimpy tanktop without a bra on, and i didn't want to go in to the mall with out a ( Read more... )

i don't know why i'm updating. i'm so happy the red sox won. i'm havin fun. woo. can i love you? probably shouldn't be saying i'm a lil' wasted either... :/