my dads being a prick to all of us now =/....hes yelling at my fucking mom for no reason. "no wonder the kids are the way they are" whats that supposed to mean? my dad has so many mood swings its amazing. now its 10:30 i have to get off. BULLLLLL SHIT. i still dont really like my dad

roar... (heh i say roar now) im being so stupid. whyyyy do i even want to be liked be these people? i dont know. i thought i was getting out of that depressed stage. i thought i was getting friends. i just have to stop "thinking". surfing sunday though. SCOREEEE. havent gotten out in a WHILE.floridas getting fucking 20 footers..pshh no fair ( Read more... )

schoooool suckkkkkkksssss.oh, and you know what i noticed. no one really writes what they REALLY feel on their live journals because they know everyone is going to be reading them. so ill make a stop to that. im seriously going to write everything i feel. woop okay so. right now i dont know. just waiting for this year to get over basically. and now ( Read more... )

ummmm. okay well yesterday i totaly freaked.it was crying all day, staying up all night. nothing unsual i guess. because school sucks and im beginning to HATE myself again. but im doing better today.ive kind of realized that its okay i dont look or walk or talk like everyone else. but it still sucks to have everyone making fun of you everyday ( Read more... )

ummmm. i miss matt. i cant wait to see him christmas. school sucks still. i dont have anymore friends. they all think of me as the 5th wheel or just the plain old weird chick who only hangs with the guys. well duh, because girls annoy me. there mean. no offense to myself. but joe ross jame-o and greg are pretty cool.i really wana run away or hitch ( Read more... )

well i havent updated in a while. schools been sucking. so many rumors are going around about me. and now my best friend found a new best friend. a cooler one whos just like me one better in everything in everyway. so now she has a new best friend a new boyfriend a new cooler school a new cooler life. shes really popular. and im still here. same ( Read more... )

wow, all my friends suck. seriously they do. sigh, again i have to start all over again and find some new ones. =( ha, im such a loser when i think about it. im no where near a "good girl" im never bad enough to be a "bad ass" im never funny enough to be the class clown, never pretty enoug to be the schools beauty queen,never smart enough to be the ( Read more... )

so this feeling of despair overwhelms ( Read more... )

so this is the end of my journal. end of everything. school starts tomarrow. im grounded for the rest of my life and going to a shrink. well.says my dad.at the end of this year or maybe in the middle of this year im taking a trip somewhere. by myself. maybe va. or nj.or maybe when i turn 14.im doing somthing, i hate my dad, i hate longisland. but, ( Read more... )

school starts tomarrow. id do anything to not go. i hate it. so prevent myself from having a panic attack and dieing, im gonna go play some brandnew songs on guitar, perferbly play crack the sky because it calms me down :) pyce